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"They seem nice." His mouth is so close to my ear I can feel his breath fan across the shell.
"They are. And so are you but we need to part ways. Right here, right now."
The words don't come out at strong as I'd hoped. If only he'd stop touching me, maybe then I might sound like I actually mean what I'm saying.
"If that's what you want. You know where to find me if you change your mind."
"Yes, I do." But I won't be coming back here for him. That would be a mistake of epic proportion.
Even if he hadn't been touching me, I would have known the moment he walked away from me. I felt the loss in every bone in my body. Immediately missed the buzz that had been vibrating through me.
Maybe he won't rush Kappa. Maybe I'll get lucky, and he'll choose another house or not to rush a fraternity at all. The further away from Max he can be, the better for me.
Because he's the one.
I know it in my bones. In my heart.
Leo is who I want to give my virginity to.
He'll be easy to walk away from after the deed is done. I don't know anything about him, and I don't want to. I've never seen him before and I'll never have to see him again.
Most girls want romance and candlelight. For the moment to be special and thought out. They expect the guy to call the next day.
Not me.
Not anymore.
I wanted that at one point but now I just want to get it over with. My virginity is like a dark cloud following me around. All my friends have lost theirs. My best friend, Lana, slept with her boyfriend over the summer. My new roommate, Sienna, has been sleeping with hers for two years.
Then there's me.
Pure little Evie.
The girl who never dated in high school because she was afraid to introduce anyone to her dad or her brother. The most overprotective men in the world. One look from either of them and guys would run. Put them together, in the same room, I'd never hear from him again.
And don't forget Finn. He was with Max most of the time. Adding to my torture.
Because what boy in their right mind would ever stand up to two guys that towered over him. Guys that could bench press him. Throw him across the room with ease.
Maybe that was my problem. I always went for the scrawny guys.
I have no idea how Willow handled it when she was my age.
My dad even had a 'talk' he gave to any guy that came into our house. Now Max gives it. According to my prom date - it's scary as hell.
Which is why I didn't lose my virginity that night. Josh was too scared to touch me. We'd made a pact and he broke his end of the bargain. Neither of us wanted to go to college a virgin. We both wanted to be rid of the cloud of doom. It didn't matter that we weren't in love or dating. That we'd never even kissed before.
We were friends.
That was good enough.
It was only going to happen once.
No. Big. Deal.
Except my brother ruined it for me. He scared the life out of Josh, and he started backpedaling as soon as we drove away from my house. We fought about it over dinner. As we drove to prom. While we danced.
By the time we were headed back to my house, I was so angry I wanted to cry. But I wasn't mad at Josh. Nope. All my anger was directed at my brother. Because he was the one that ruined my night. He, once again, found a way to scare off a guy.
After that, I was hell-bent on getting as far away from Max as possible. If I was willing to leave my mom, I would have gone to a different college. It's less than a year. Eight months of torture. Seven if you account for all the breaks.
I can survive my brother for that long, right?
I sure as hell hope so because I don't really have a choice.
