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Lukus moved in slow motion, subconsciously giving her time to stop him. He first lowered his forehead to hers, making yet another intimate connection as he began to close the final few inches that separated their lips, stopping just a fraction before they physically touched. He could smell the minty toothpaste she had used just minutes before. His vulnerability was back. He knew he shouldn’t just take what he wanted. Not from Brianna.
Still, he moved to close the final inch, desperate to claim her mouth in a heated kiss. At the final second, Brianna turned her head, forcing him to move his empty lips to the crook of her neck. He sucked her tender skin, overcome with the desire to mark her as his own. He felt heady when Bri shuddered from the pleasure rippling through her as he sucked and nibbled.
Only her crying out his name finally brought him to his senses. “Lukus! Please… stop. We can’t do this. Not to Markus. I’m begging you. Please… stop.”
With great effort, Lukus rolled away from her, landing on his back. His breath was still labored as he threw his forearm over his eyes, too ashamed of himself to even look at her.
Thank God she was strong enough to stop us.
They lay silently for several minutes, each lost in thought. Lukus was the first to speak. “Say I believe you that you didn’t go there to cheat on Markus yesterday. You still need to make me understand why the hell you’d go anywhere with Jake six months ago.”
“Seriously? That’s what you want to talk about right now? After…” Bri’s voice wavered.
“There’s nothing to talk about. You belong to Markus. I was stupid. It won’t happen again. Now tell me.”
He didn’t dare look at her yet. He was grateful that she answered his question.
“After the cabin, I was so fucked up that I needed to learn to trust men all over again. I told Markus about Jake right after we started dating. There was no way I could hide it. I was afraid he’d see me as damaged goods, but he was so understanding. He was exactly what I needed at the time. So sweet. So gentle. So loving. He helped me recover and truly, I love everything about him. He is wonderful to me. It’s just…” She stopped and sighed.
Lukus finished her thought for her, the answer obvious. “It’s just that after you recovered, you started to miss the edginess and excitement of turning over control. After watching you respond to punishments and knowing you can hit subspace faster than anyone else I’ve ever been with, I can only imagine how much you missed being dominated. That was the one thing that Markus wasn’t giving you.” Lukus paused, putting more of the puzzle pieces together before adding, “It’s starting to make sense now. I never understood how Markus could just walk away from the lifestyle. He’s a charter member of the club. He and Georgie came here often. Then the next thing I know he divorces Georgie, meets you, and decides to go all Mr. Rogers on me. He never told me he’d changed because of something that happened to you.”
“Are you saying that Markus was a Dom just like you and he threw it away to be with me?”
“That’s exactly what I’m saying. He wouldn’t even introduce you to me for fear you might figure it out. At the time, I thought he was just ashamed of me or something. Now I realize he was trying to protect you from getting hurt again.”
“He hid it well,” Brianna said sadly. “He was always in complete control in the courtroom, it was so easy for me to see him being in control at home, too. But he turned it off as soon as he walked in the door. I don’t understand how he could turn his back on such a big part of who he is.”
Lukus finally removed his arm from over his eyes and rolled to his side, resting his head in his hand to hover over Brianna. “It’s easy. He loves you more than he loves himself.”
Brianna’s breath caught. She finally asked the question he’d been dreading. “Is he ever gonna be able to forgive me?”
Lukus considered her question. “I honestly don’t know, sweetheart. You really ripped his heart out and handed it to him on a platter. I’ve known him for a long time, but I just don’t know how this is gonna play out.”
“Will you please talk to him for me? Try to explain it to him? I know he won’t listen to me, but maybe he’ll listen to you.” He could see the hope in her brown eyes.
“What makes you think I even want to help you sort this out with him? You made your bed. Maybe part of your punishment is to let you lie in it now.”
“I don’t believe you. You can’t fool me, Lukus. You care about Markus and I think you care about me. Please… won’t you at least try?”
It took him a minute to reply. “Shit… I think I’m fucked.”
Brianna rewarded him with a killer smile that told him for a fact he was indeed fucked.
Maybemynew nickname should be Mr. Rogers.
Deciding it was time to reassert himself, Lukus rolled over to the edge of the bed and reached into his nightstand to withdraw a length of rope. He felt a pang of regret at the excitement he saw in Brianna’s eyes. On a different day, with a different woman, he could have had so much fun. But not today.
“What’s that for?” she asked warily.
“I have a few errands to run and there’s no way I’m giving you free rein over my loft. I should be locking you in the stockade down in the dungeon right about now and then lighting up your ass again with my belt.” He smiled a wry smile. “Instead, I’ve decided that tying you down here to take a nap while I’m gone is gonna have to be good enough.”
She grinned. “You’d better be careful, Lukus. If the club finds out you punished me with a nap, it could ruin your entire reputation.” Brianna barely got a short giggle out before he flipped her onto her tummy, smacking her ass for good measure. Lukus made quick work of securing both of her wrists to his headboard while she struggled feebly against the rope.
“I can see I’ve let you get away with entirely too much lip, little girl. Now that you’ve pointed out the shortcomings in my punishment plan, I’ll make a few additions to the agenda before I leave.” Once she was secure, Lukus reached back to his private stock of sex toys to grab more rope. Brianna was straining to see, an anxious expression on her face. He flipped her onto her back, reaching to squeeze one of her heavy breasts before getting to work.
“This is called Shibari—more specifically, I’m restraining you with a Bikini Harness.” Lukus worked at wrapping the rope around artfully for a few minutes before adding, “It shouldn’t be painful. I’m making it just tight enough to act as a constant reminder that you’re still being punished while I’m gone.”
Just as he finished the wrap, Brianna released an unadulterated groan that sounded much more like pleasure than pain.
