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She’s still staring at me like that.
I swallow and let a wide grin grow on my face. Then I raise my eyebrows at her, calling her on it.
But she isn’t about to deny it. She gets out of her chair and takes the two steps to mine, straddling me. She kisses me hard.
“What is this?” I mutter between kisses.
She gives me a little shrug. “Blurred lines.”
Warning bells go off, but I temporarily silence them. I wrap my arms around her waist, pressing my fingers into her back and sweeping my tongue against hers.
Fuck, this feels so good.
I know I’m getting hard and she can probably feel it. I know we’re in public. But I don’t care. This has always been the easy part. Giving into that desire is the easiest thing in the world. It’s what comes with the desire that’s not easy.
No.
My entire body groans and screams at me. But it doesn’t matter. I have to do it.
I slowly pull my lips away and rest my head against hers.
“We should probably stop. I don’t want to—”
She takes a deep breath, forces a smile on her face, and stands up. Grabbing her milkshake from the table, she holds her hand out to me. “Wanna go for a walk?”
I smile up at her. “Yeah, let’s do that.” I stand up and grab my milkshake, then take her hand.
We head toward the path down by the river. We walk, arms wrapped around each other’s backs, down the path we’ve walked so many times together. We don’t talk, we just enjoy each other’s company. But I can’t shake the feeling of that kiss. I know we’re treading a slippery slope, but it’s hard not to. We can either be awkward and barely friends or we’re fighting the natural pull between us at every turn.
I want to be sure. Don’t fucking rush it this time. Do it right.
I repeat the words over and over again, because I don’t want to get it wrong.Again.
Rae
When we get back to my house, Aaron leads us up to the back deck. The stars are just showing in the darkening sky. I know what comes next. Or what normally would. Tonight has been the epitome of confusing.
I let myself hope more than I should have. It’s why I kissed him. Yet, he stopped it, making me realize I probably misread this whole night. I take a deep breath, trying to steady my emotions. I still want to enjoy this. Later tonight, I can crawl into Sarah’s bed and cry my eyes out if I need to. Until then, I can enjoy this.
Iwill.
Aaron motions for us to lie down.
He settles against the deck first, then extends his arm for me to rest against. With shaky breaths, I lie down next to him, my head resting on his thick bicep.
We point out a few constellations before he says, “Oh, almost forgot.”
He grabs his phone and starts playing a song. I recognize it. It’s from our playlist.
Stay strong, Rae, you can do this.
“Make a wish, Beautiful.”
With a thumping heart, I inhale deeply and close my eyes. Then I exhale. I open them. I look for the bright star. And I make a wish that doesn’t feel like it’s going to come true. At least not tonight.I wish Aaron and I would be us again.
Using every ounce of willpower to keep my emotions in check, I squeeze his hand. Silently he inhales, exhales, and makes his wish.
I doubt it was for me. Or evenus.
