AllFreeNovel
Share Us
I came close to disaster.
Eunuch at 22 years old.
17
Scarlett
“So, how is it going?”
“He’s distant,” I admit.
I take a sip of my Coke, looking around and pretending to be interested in the new pictures the girls have hung on the walls. During our first year of college, we each had a room in the same hall, when Paige and I came back from France, Paige and Carol found a room to share. It was more convenient to be together rather than with an unknown roommate, and since I was going to be moving in with the guys, we were sure to see each other often.
At the end, it’s a good place to take refuge. And it’s served me pretty well lately. Here and at Corey’s. Even if the more the days go by, the less I feel comfortable with him. Again, another subject, another problem.
“I thought Nolan was pretty determined that things wouldn’t change between you guys!” Carol exclaims. “That doesn’t make any sense.”
I sigh, because of our conversation.
It was just a kiss. I couldn’t care less about.His words echo in my mind. It’s better for my sanity that I totally ignore his clumsy attempt to repair our relationship. If he thought he was telling me the things I wanted to hear, he mostly saidallthose that I feared the most coming from him.
“Of course, it was going to change,” Paige blurts out. “She kissed him. You shouldn’t have expected anything else. He must no longer know how to act with you.”
“And I don’t know how to act with him anymore,” I confess.
“Do you even talk to each other?”
“A little,” I say to Carol. “Mostly when the guys are around. Otherwise, it’s… weird.”
I run a hand through my hair and take another sip from my can.
“Yeah, so whatever he may have said to you, he still avoids you. Maybe he doesn’t realize it, but he doesn’t want you to imagine anything if he gets close to you.”
I grimace, letting my head fall back against the wall behind me. That was precisely what I wanted to avoid. Nolan knowing that all closeness involves hope. Hearing from the mouths of my girlfriends what has been going on in my head for several days causes a twinge in my chest.
“I’ve really screwed up.”
“No, things will get better. You’re with Corey, Nolan’s gonna figure out you just made a mistake,” Paige says.
“Well, Corey’s kind of bugging me,” I admit in a small voice. “He’s…”
I sigh at the disappointed pouts on their faces. They believed in it like me, but they know how he is. They have noticed how he acts.
“He’s a daddy’s boy. And that kind of annoys me.”
“Unfortunately, that, we understood as soon as you dated him. But it’s going well otherwise?”
I shrug at Carol’s question. I slept at his house most of the week, avoiding the apartment as much as I could. My insomnia was hard to cope with since I had no proper couch to crawl on. I slept very little but at least I stayed away from Nolan. He didn’t give a damn about it at all. He didn’t give a second thought about my new sleeping habits, not even when I passed him in the hallway, and it was just the two of us. A few days ago, he would have lectured me, acting like my brother.
Except now it’s not the same. No matter what he tried to make me believe.
“Yes. He’s nice and I like him.”
“But you’re not in love.”
I look up at Paige, not answering. I think it’s written on my face that no, I don’t have any feelings for Corey. It’s too soon, we have too many differences. His studies, his parents, his politics. It suffocates me.
But with him it’s easy, and lately that’s all I’ve needed.
