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"You are nothing like him, Jameson. I hope you don't think that's what I meant. I just… I have to put Ellison first. I don't want her to get hurt."
"I know," He sighs, "I promise you, Hanna, had I known you were pregnant, I never would've left you. I never would've left her."
"Don't say that to me!" I snap, "I didn't need you to stay because I was pregnant. I have never needed you because of that. I needed you because you were my entire world. I wanted you to want me back."
He doesn't speak, unsure of what to say. I finish up my rant, "Like I said, this isn't about us. This is about our daughter."
He shakes his head, "I will do whatever it takes to prove to you that I'm serious about this. I need her, Hanna. I…"
He stops himself, I almost think he's going to say, I need you too, but he doesn't.
"Okay," I agree, "you can get to know Ellie, but it will be on my terms. My rules."
He pulls me into a hug, his embrace sending a slew of backflips to my stomach. I soften into his arms, a feeling I haven't felt in six years. Reckless. Wild. Safe.
I yank away, blurting the absolute first thing that comes to mind, "I have a boyfriend."
Jameson freezes, a look of jealousy and a wicked grin covering his face.
"Stop smiling at me like that."
He laughs, "Smiling at you like what?"
"Like you can get whatever you want. It's the cocky Jameson smile. You know exactly what I'm talking about."
"Is it working?" He asks.
"No!" I squeal, "I told you, I have a boyfriend. He's great, and Ellie loves him."
He drops his head, "I can't believe I let this happen. Some other guy trying to raise my kid, Judson should've called me!" He yells, slamming his fist into the end table.
"That's not fair." I warn, "Judson didn't know."
"He fucking knew, Hanna. He suspected it all along! It was a phone call. All it took was a damn phone call!"
"Don't blame him," I snap back, "It's not his fault, and I wonder how many days he sat around waiting on a phone call from you? How many days we all did."
He takes a breath, trying to calm down, "I'm sorry. I just… I…"
"Jameson, stop. We will discuss a plan for Ellie, but I don't want to tell her right away. I want to give you some time to make sure this is what you want."
"When can I see her?" He rasps, "I just want to see her."
"How's Friday? I promised I'd take her to the park after work?"
"We have airspace on Friday, so we're flying. Depending on debriefing, I'm usually done before 2 o'clock."
"Okay, just let me know if anything changes."
He shakes his head in agreement, and I can't help but wonder if he's serious or if he is going to fight his way back into our lives just to disappoint us and vanish.
18 Years Old
I didn't want to go out with Blakely. I didn't even want to leave my bed. In fact, I feel so shitty from last night. I really just need to pack up my stuff and figure out what I'm going to do. Stay with Karly? Try and get another dorm?
I haven't called my mom yet, knowing what her response will be. I can already hear her judgmental comments, "I told you that boy was trouble, sweet pea."
Memories from last night flood my brain as I try to push them aside. They make me sick. I love him. I fucking trusted him not to break my heart. I went to campus searching for him, hunting down his friends like a psychopath. He makes me crazy, going against every single thing I stand for, chasing him. I shake my head at the thought. I guess that's what love does. It makes you crazy.
