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“Open your eyes, Alana,” he demands. I shake my head, but he tells me again, firmer. I draw in a deep breath centring myself before I open them and meet his eyes.
“If you can look me in the eyes and tell me you aren’t attracted to me, I will walk out the door. You will never see or hear from me again. And lying to me will be pointless because I can tell a lie from a mile away.” His voice is softer now.
I have no idea how I will get myself out of this one. I am a terrible liar, so my face will give me away even if he was useless at separating the truth from the lies. I could tell him no, but he will see right through me.
“Why do you insist on torturing me?” I groan in frustration as I rub my temples.
“Nice way of avoiding my question, but by doing so it tells me everything I need to know.” Confidence drips from his voice with every word.
I stand, needing to put a distance between us. “You should leave. You should leave-like-um-right-um-now,” I stammer out, trying to ignore the tightness in my stomach and the heat between my thighs, the after-effect of him touching me. God, how pathetic am I? It wasn’t even a sexual touch, yet here I am thirsty for him. Men don’t do this to me, ever! And the fact that he can is another reason he needs to leave.
He climbs off my bed, sauntering over to me with a devilish look on his face, and a sexy smile on his lips. He stops only inches away from me. “Why? Can’t you handle being in the same room as me, kitten?” he rasps, grabbing my hips and pulling me to his chest. I try to speak, but no words come out. I manage a shake of my head because his beautiful blue eyes distract me from sanity.
I take a few steps back, and he follows. My back soon hits the wall behind me, trapping me. Ezra’s hand lands on my cheek, stroking it, his eyes switching from my eyes to my lips. My tongue darts from between my lips, a part of me wants so badly to kiss him, but I know I shouldn’t.
“Tell me again to leave?” he breaths out, his free hand resting next to my head.
I can’t, even if it is the right thing to do. I tug my lower lip between my teeth, searching his eyes. They are dark blue and full of lust, a look which is enough to cause a shiver to run down my body and straight to between my legs. Ezra closes the small gap between us, capturing my lips with his. I try to fight it but fail. I snake my arms around his neck, working my lips with his in a heated kiss. He entangles his fingers in my hair, pressing his body harder to mine and grunting into the kiss.
I moan, running my fingertips down his back, and I feel his muscles tense under my touch. He grabs my left leg, and hooks it around his hip, then grinds his hard cock in between the apex of my thighs. I gasp, rolling my hips to meet his dick. I have never been so turned on as I am right now in this moment. My panties are soaking.
He removes his lips from mine, breathing heavily. “Do you feel what you do to me?” Oh, trust me, it would be hard not to feel it with the size of the damn thing digging into me. I nod, and he retakes my lips with his.
It doesn’t take long for us to get carried away until reality hits me. What the fuck am I doing? I abruptly pull back, resting my hand on his chest and shoving him away. “No, this can’t happen! I refuse to be a hoe and fuck a man who belongs to someone else!”
“I do not belong to fuckinganyone!” he snaps, the anger in his voice evident. His chest is heaving.
“Yes! You do!” I reply in the same manner, taken back by his quick turnaround, but I refuse to back down to him. He seems pissed off by my statement. The lust in his eyes minutes ago is replaced with anger.
He shakes his head and grabs his shoes, storming out of my room and my apartment, slamming the front door behind him. I don’t move, confused by what just happened. I don’t understand his reaction. Maybe he feels guilty for cheating on Bella, but my gut tells me it isn’t the first time he has, so there must be another reason. I shouldn’t have let it go as far as I did. No, I didn’t fuck him, but that kiss we shared was enough to make me feel bad.
As I finally step away from the wall, as I take a step my legs nearly buckle. Damn! That man has made me weak in the knees. I make it to the bed and sit down to give my body time to relax. I am hot and bothered, and in desperate need of a cold shower. When I know it’s safe for me to move again, I head straight for the bathroom, stripping down and stepping into a cold shower, letting the water cool down my body.
I wish I could say for sure I won’t see him again, but I don’t believe it will be the case. He may have stormed out, but I feel I haven’t seen or heard the last from him. I keep the cold shower running for five more minutes before turning it warm. I sigh, resting my back on the shower wall. I don’t know how to deal with everything that has happened in less than twenty-four hours. It is madness. I still have no idea how he found me.
I get out of the shower when I am ready, quickly drying myself off I put some sweats on. I need something to take my mind off everything. Hmm, maybe a nap will do it for me. I crawl into bed, curling up under the quilt. With any luck I will sleep until tomorrow morning, and Ezra will have found someone else to put his attention on.
“Ezra, where are you going?”Bella whines from my king size bed.
“For a shower,” I answer simply. When I came home from seeing Alana Bella was here, needy and horny. I gave her what she wanted because I needed it too. I had Alana on my mind the entire time.
She huffs loudly, but I ignore her as I head to the bathroom. Switching the shower on hot water comes out instantly. Even after so many years it still surprises me how quickly warm water comes out. When I was a kid the shower we had was terrible, the water was always cold. I tried to avoid it when I could because it was horrible. I still hate the feel of cold water on my body to this day and always make sure my swimming pool is heated before jumping in. I used to get picked on at school for being dirty, but I dealt with it.
I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself. “I don’t belong to anyone,” I whisper.
I should never have snapped at Alana the way I did when she said that to me, but I have scars from my past, and those words trigger me. My biological parents thought I belonged to them and used me to get their crack in more than one way, from stealing to lying to letting people abuse me. I close my eyes, taking a deep breath before those memories come back.
I hated my adoptive parents at first because they expected me to be the perfect little boy. I felt like I was a possession belonging to them, not a son, and I believed that was why they adopted me. As time went by, I realized it wasn’t the case, they were trying to give me the best life. Unfortunately, I didn’t trust anyone to start with.
I give myself a mental shake, not wanting to dwell on the past.
I step into the shower, relaxing under the spray and enjoying the silence. Bella will probably spend the night, so I need a little time to myself. I plan to apologize to Alana, but I don’t know when or how? Definitely not while Bella is around. Yet I’m sure I can find a way.
My peace is interrupted by Bella knocking on the door, telling me to hurry up because she wants to go out for dinner and drinks. It is the last thing I want to do tonight, but I will go to stop any drama from playing out.
“Give me ten minutes,” I call back.
My mind drifts back to Alana. The way her lips felt on mine was incredible. Having her body so close to me was enough to make me lose my mind. If she didn’t push me away, I am sure the sex between us would have been on fire if the kiss we shared was anything to go by.
