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I will get my revenge. In stars, we trust.
CHAPTER41
Leonardo
~LEONARDO~
Iwalked aimlessly in the rain, the frigid droplets beat against my body as I continued on, dragging my feet, one step after another.
Why?
Such a simple word, but it held a thousand questions – none of which would help solve my problem as I continued to walk in the storm raging around me.
Why couldn’t I be happy?
Why was I always a failure?
Why was I a dormant shifter?
Why did I lose everything I loved?
Why was I born into such a world?
Why did the gods always forsake me?
Why did they allow my mom to be stoned to death?
Why was I alone...
Werethe tears I shed every night in the comfort of my single room, my bed and a pillow hard as rocks, not enough? Were my failures and multiple attempts to please others, by slaving around the school, not a demonstration of my wish for acceptance?
For just once, I wanted to be praised. My ears craved for words of acknowledgment as my mind begged to feel what success was.
My hands wished to feel what power was like; my tongue longed for a taste of such satisfaction as I stood proudly and announced my position of high rank – people falling to their knees in awe and admiration.
Was my desire too weak to be felt by the gods above? Their bright, twinkling stars shone in the dark sky, mocking me each night as I begged for their salvation.
“Am I not worthy?”
I stopped in my tracks, the tears that threatened to spill gave in, the salt like water trailed down my flushed cheeks as I looked towards the sky.
I let out a loud cry, sobs wracked my body as I cried in place.
“Why have you forsaken me! You give everyone around me such blessings and hope, yet you belittle me and laugh. Was my rural upbringing not enough to give me a sense of joy? Is my dormant spirit to blame for such negligence? I am a child of yours, too! A being, created by your hands! Yet you leave me here to rot in suffering and agony. How long do I have to pray till you listen to me? Till my prayers are finally answered? Till I die and ascend to meet you face to face!” I roared.
I fell to my knees, pounding on the ground as if it was my enemy.
“I hate the gods...I despise you. If only I could make you pay. Yes, make you feel this agonizing pain I go through every day and night. I’d give the same amount of suffering I’ve bared my entire life. No. I’ll give you double, no, triple of my sorrow. You will regret not helping me,” I declared through clenched teeth, my eyes wide. I looked at my bloody hands; the pain gave me satisfaction.
“Would you like my assistance?”
I gazed up at the man in the white suit standing before me. His large, red umbrella leaned forward, shielding me from the cold rain that continued to beat harshly around us.
I saw his red eyes twinkle as his lips curled into a devilish smile. “You…you’re the man from before,” I stated, shivering at the memory.
“Yes. I’m sorry I had to contribute to such suffering. At the time, my resolve was as strong as yours. I needed to get rid of my targets and you had the information I needed. No hard feelings.” He reached out to me, his open hand stopped in front of me.
I took a moment to question his motives, but I brushed off such a mentality. I wasn’t a knight anymore. The decisions I made were mine alone. Whoever got affected by them wasn’t my business or concern. I was alone in this world, with no strings attaching me to such morals.
