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Surprisingly, Brax was the one that called for calm this time around. ‘That’s enough. We’ll decide when the time is right and when we can all see things clearer.’
‘Who said four’s a crowd?’ Cole’s voice echoed from the other end of the room, taking all of us by surprise.
‘Doesn’t anyone knock in this house?’ I was the one protesting about the intrusion and not Ferris, the rightful owner of the room. He didn’t even seem to care, just saw Cole’s presence as natural as me being there.
‘It’s not like I could stumble onto something that would shock me.’ Cole cast out a vicious smile. ‘More like something I could join.’
I couldn’t go there with the conversation, especially at a time like that, and he quickly realized it. Yet that didn’t stop him from finding a place between my legs.
Following Brax’s gesture, he threw his jacket on a chair and trudged on the bed, pushing my thighs apart.
‘What do you think you’re doing?’ His gesture irritated me, as I thought it was of adifferentnature. Not that I wouldn’t have normally enjoyed it, but it was the worst time and place possible.
‘Relax, Mouse. I’m only searching for a pillow.’ He pushed my legs further apart, resting his head on the inside of my thigh to actually sleep.
I didn’t really know how to react but let him claim his rightful place as the final piece that was making me whole.
They all were all a part of me in their specific ways.
Ferris was making me understand how life works.
Brax was giving me strength.
And Cole was making my every single cell shudder with the pure feeling of living.
Together they made me feel complete, like I had finally found a place of my own, even if that would be an illusion, even if it would last only for an ephemeral moment, and even if the dawn would send me straight back to crushing reality.
That’s how I managed to fall asleep, protected by my three kings, drifting towards a treacherous safety because one truth remained,you never know what tomorrow brings.
Chapter 18
Ididn’t want to open my eyes and acknowledge that it was morning.
In fact, I think I didn’t want to acknowledge that the outside world still existed. I wanted it to be as lost as I was, heading towards overwhelming darkness.
It seemed I was in bed only with Cole, who had somehow advanced onto Ferris’s pillow and made sure I was tightly caged between his arms. The heavy inhales and exhales moving his chest were letting me know that he was still sleeping. No matter how much I hated the thought of bothering him, I just couldn’t remain in bed. I felt utterly trapped, struggling to breathe, like even Ferris’s extra-large chamber was too small to accommodate what I was feeling.
Fear.
Pain.
Regret.
Empathy.
Guilt.
All smothering me so fiercely that I couldn’t remain between the sheets one second longer.
I jumped out of bed without any idea why or what I was going to do next. I just needed to do something. Anything to get my mind, even for a second, from what had happened.
‘Where are you going?’ Cole had woken up before I could reach the door.
‘I was just going to have a look around. I can’t be in bed.’ The truth was, I was just drifting like a paper plane, praying that the thoughts haunting my mind would come to an end.
‘I’m coming with you... to have a look around.’ Although Cole wasn’t saying it directly, he was worried that I could do something stupid. I couldn’t blame him because all sorts of absurd thoughts were going through my mind.
I wanted revenge, and at the same time, I wanted to take her place in the immortal silence.
