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Oscar
I’mcausingmyownblackouts. What the fuck is wrong with me? I’m lost in my own thoughts as I let Cheryl lead me out of the woods. She used her magic to check for problems and guess what? I’m the fucking problem. My brain. My stupid, over-sensitive nervous system.
“I’m making myself blackout,” I mutter, as we get to the backyard.
“Seems like it,” Cheryl confirms.
“I don’t know how we fix this,” I admit.
“Oscar, we don’t have to work it out tonight,” she tells me. “We’ve figured some things out. It’ll take time to figure out the rest. Give yourself time.”
“I’ve been having blackouts for years, Cheryl. They started when I was a kid. Fuck knows what triggered them going back that far.”
“You don’t remember the first one?” she asks quietly.
I stop and think, but nothing stands out. “I don’t.”
“Did anything traumatic happen when you were young?”
I shake my head. “My parents are good people. I don’t remember anything bad from my childhood.”
“You weren’t afraid to shift then? Even if you blacked out?”
“No. I thought that was normal. I didn’t realize it wasn’t until I came here. My parents live like humans. They’re not interested in the pack lifestyle. They didn’t think anything was wrong with me so why would I?”
“Kind of odd for an Alpha to want to live outside of a pack,” Cheryl murmurs.
“An Alpha?” I ask her, before I realize she doesn’t know. “My parents are Betas. I was abandoned when I was young. They adopted me and raised me as their own.”
I don’t think I’ve even seen her look so stunned. Kind of wish it was for a less depressing reason.
“You don’t think that has something to do with the blackouts?” I ask, wondering for the first time if it might have everything to do with them.
“You were abandoned, Oscar,” she murmurs. “I’d say that’s fairly traumatic.”
Well shit. “I don’t remember any of that. I was too young.”
She puts an arm around me. “We don’t have to figure it out tonight.”
She’s right, and I don’t want to waste the night feeling bad about something I don’t remember anything about. I’m ready to put it to the side. It’s not going anywhere.
“Tonight is for better things,” I agree, taking her hand and leading her toward the mansion.
One night isn’t going to be enough for everything I have planned, so we’d better get started.
Chapter Seventeen
Cheryl
Itfeelslikeaweight has lifted from Oscar’s shoulders as he leads me back to the house. We didn’t solve his problem, but we know what’s wrong now and we’ll find a way to fix it. Just, not tonight.
Tonight is for better things, like Oscar said.
He stops at the back door, and gestures for me to go first.
“It seems I’ve left my keys in my other jacket,” he jokes, patting down his abs.
“You also left the rest of your clothes in the middle of the woods,” I remind him.
