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Lennox’s heart was pounding so hard he feared Auden would hear it as they made their way to his room. Never in his life had he been so scared to go to bed with someone. Even when he’d been a virgin, his mind had been too clouded with horniness that first time to let worry in. But this, being with Auden, felt like walking a tightrope over a field of landmines. So much could go wrong.
For the last couple of weeks, Lennox had been preparing himself for the end of this. When O’Neal had said she loved Auden, Len had felt the truth of her words and had seen the reciprocation on Auden’s face. He’d been thrilled for them even as it’d broken his own goddamned heart. The two of them were perfect for each other. Of course that was the answer to the equation he’d tried for so long to solve—how to make Auden happy.
Lennox hadn’t expected what O’Neal had said to him, though.You would be so easy to love.No one had ever found him easy to love, and hearing it from O’Neal had made him want to pull her into his arms and not let go, to tell her,back at you, Sweets.But he knew that wasn’t a realistic option. Not in most worlds, but especially not in the one O’Neal and Auden were going back to. He and Auden couldn’t both have her. So Len had been crushed for himself but determined to make Auden get his head out of his ass and see that he could have something beautiful with O’Neal.
That was going to be his parting gift to his best friend. Here she is, Aud. See her. Love her. Be happy.
Len could’ve accepted that outcome, knowing they both had each other.
But then Auden had to go and screw up Len’s gorgeous, selfless plan by admitting he had feelings for him. That he wanted him,lovedhim.
Now Len was feeling less like a martyr and more like a hungry dragon, selfish and greedy and wanting all the treasure for himself. Mine.
Mine. Mine. Mine.
Because now he wanted them both. Damn the torpedoes.This would have to be a secret. And secrets blew up lives and they blew up families and he hadn’t wanted to do any of that because he’d been the secret that’d blown up his family, the surprise baby of an affair. But now he couldn’t help himself.
He was in love. And he wanted this. They were all fucked.
Auden stepped inside his room and turned around, his calves touching the bed. He gave Len a chagrined smile. “I’m used to being in charge but…”
Len shut the door behind him and moved closer. His gut tightened at the sight of his normally confident best friend looking vulnerable andso fucking hot.He rarely got to reallylookat Auden, always afraid he’d reveal too much on his face, but damn the guy was gorgeous, all honed swimmer’s muscles and smooth skin. He couldn’t believe he was going to get to touch him without restrictions.
Len slid his hand onto the back of Auden’s neck and touched his forehead to his. The clean scent of Auden’s soap was somehow making him even harder. “One day, I’ll let you do whatever you want to me. You can order me around however you want,” he put his lips next to Auden’s ear “Because for you, Aud, I will doall of it.”
Auden shuddered in his grip and whispered, “Fuck.”
“But for tonight, let me lead,” he said, lifting his head. “If you want to stop at any point, just say so.”
Auden met his gaze and nodded. “Okay.”
Something unlocked inside him. Auden didn’t trust easily and he didn’t cede control. Holding that trust in his palm was a precious gift. He needed to be worthy of it. He leaned in and kissed Auden again, one, because he’d wanted to do it for so long and now was marveling at the access, but also, he wanted to get Auden’s mind out of analytical mode and into sensations.
Auden’s stiff posture relaxed as their tongues met, and he put a hand on Len’s hip, drawing him closer. Len groaned as Auden’s hardened cock brushed against his. Man, the guy made him feel like a virgin again, like he could go off at any second. He put a hand on Auden’s shoulder and pressed him back, guiding him down to the bed. Auden went willingly, and they never broke the kiss as Len crawled over his best friend’s body.
Len’s braced himself above him, his hips rocking slowly, their cocks grinding gently against each other as they made out. Len was about to ask if that was okay, but before he could, Auden’s hand slid up the back of Len’s thigh and then gripped his ass, positioning him so that things were harder, rougher.
Auden made a sound into Lennox’s mouth, and a hot shiver went through Len, raising goosebumps.God.
He’d promised that they’d take things slow, but right now he didn’t want to stop being this close to him. He broke away for a breath. “I need you naked.”
The words had slipped out, and Lennox feared he’d moved too fast, but Auden didn’t flinch. “You too.”
Lennox rolled off briefly and shucked his boxers, tossing them somewhere, and Auden did the same. Len reached for a bottle of lube he kept in a drawer in the nightstand. When he turned back toward Auden, his breath caught. Auden was stretched out, hand around his cock, and eyes on Len. Hungry eyes. The impact of it was like a shot of a drug. He’d never seen Auden look at him like that. Like he was ravenous for him.
Lennox inhaled the feeling and then drizzled lube into his hand. “Need some help with that?”
Auden’s teeth dug into his bottom lip, and he cocked his chin at Len. “You first.”
The offer surprised him, but he tossed the bottle to Auden. Aud slicked his hand up and then beckoned him forward. Once Len was straddling him, Auden’s fingers slid along Len’s cock with a firm, confident grip.
“Christ,” Lennox breathed, tilting his head back.
Auden chuckled and gave him another stroke. “You’re making this easy. Who’s the virgin again?”
Lennox snorted and then reached between them and wrapped his hand around Auden’s thick erection, giving it a good pump.
Auden’s hips lifted and he gasped.
