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But now, this year, I was utterly alone.
My parents were gone to the pub, and even Kev, who rarely left the house, had gone with them.
Fresh from a shower, I stood in front of my bedroom mirror, and took a long, hard glance in the mirror.
My eyes were puffy and bloodshot, my lips were red and swollen, and my cheeks were tearstained.
I looked like shit.
I felt worse.
Sniffling, I reached up and pulled my damp and knotted hair into a make-shift bun on top of my head.
Dressing in a pair of black leggings, ballet pumps, and a chunky, oversized pink jumper, I batted the tears still trickling down my cheeks away with the back of my hand.
My hair was a wet mess piled on top of my head, and my face was void of makeup, but I didn’t care.
I didn’t have any plans for the night.
To be fair, it wasn’t as if I didn’t have offers. I had received countless texts and invitations from school pals, not to mention a dozen or so colorful voicemails from Casey. She was begging me to go with her to a Tommen party that Katie had snagged us an invite to, courtesy of her rugby playing lover-boy.
According to Casey, the boys werefine,the drink was free, and she had every intention of snagging herself a fancy-pants, private-school-attending, built-like-a-brick-shithouse rugby-playing ride for the night.
Good for her.
She could have all of the rugby-obsessed boys of Tommen she wanted, because the only boy I wanted to spend tonight with came with a hurley, a BCS uniform, and a truckload of trauma.
Pulling the sleeves of my jumper down over my hands, I shivered from the cold as my gaze raked over my bedroom floor, eyes searching for the familiar keyring.
Don’t do it,my pride warned,don’t be so desperate.
Oh my god, do it!my heart encouraged,you know he still loves us.
Eyes landing on my car keys, I quickly snatched them up and hurried out of my room.
Yay, you’re going to do it, my heart cheered.
You can leave me at the door,my pride declared, checking out on me,this is beyond pathetic.
I knew that I was taking one hell of a risk in doing what I was about to do, and there was a good chance that I would break my heart further, but I would never forgive myself if I didn’t get the words that were burning me from the insideout.
He neededhelpand I needed to beheard.
And even if he refused to let me help him, then he damn sure would hear me.
BABYSITTING BROTHERS AND BOYCOTTING BAD HABITS
DECEMBER 31ST 2004
JOEY
“Go the fuck to sleep,”I shouted up the staircase. “I swear to Christ, lads, if I have to come back up these stairs, you’ll be sorry.”
“Yeah right,” Tadhg laughed back, daring as ever, as he leaned over the banister and taunted me. “What are you going to do?Glareat us to death?”
“Yeah,” Billy brave bollox with the purple Furby tucked under his arm, chimed in. “We knows you won’t touch us, Joe.”
“Don’t get lippy with me, fucker,” I warned, pointing a finger at number five. “There’s a first time for everything.”
