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“No?” I sat up straighter. “So you don’t want me to come back now?” I could do that. I’d spent gemoons missing her, after all. This was a sign. I wasn’t happy on Ohkk, not anymore. I’d probably be unhappy with the resistance, but I’d be with her, and we’d have a child together, and that sounded—
“No.”
I licked my lips. “Shei, if you’d told me, I would have been there.”
“I don’twantyou here,” she snapped.
I flinched, like she’d open-palm-slapped me.
She sighed, massaging the bridge of her nose. “I only mean that we know it doesn’t work with us. We don’t need to try to get back together for the baby. When does thateverwork?”
She was right. We weren’t together. We were on opposite sides of the galaxy. If I’d really wanted to fight for her, I could have, and I gave up on her pretty quickly, all things considered.
I’d spent gemoons missing her, yeah, but I’d never tried to get in touch with her. I’d never made any attempts to get back with her.
Why was that?
Because I didn’t want to go back to the resistance. That sounded like torture to me. I wanted her, but there was no way I could have her.
And now, she was going to have a baby. My baby. And I wasn’t even going to be there. My face twisted.
“Holston?” she said.
I held up a hand. “Give me a hidosec,” I said thickly.
“Look, I’m sorry I said that I didn’t want you here, but—”
“No, no, I’m not…” I wiped my eye with the heel of my hand. “That’s not why I’m like this. You’re right. I was miserable there. I wanted to put you first, but, like, Icouldn’t. If I’d wanted you back, I could have tried to get you back, and I didn’t.”
She nodded. “Yeah,” she said softly.
“But now I’m going to be a dad except… exceptnot.”
“No, that’s why I told you,” she said. “I figured you deserved to know. And if you want to be part of it, then…”
“Then what?”
“Well, we’ll… we’ll work it out somehow.”
“Like visitations or something,” I said in realization. “I get him for a couple fogemoons every gecycle? Like that?” I swallowed. “Yeah, I guess it’s better than nothing.”
“I’m so sorry, Holston,” she whispered.
“What are you apologizing for?Ishould apologize. I’m the one who… I fucked up your whole life.”
“No,” she said, shaking her head. “No, I want the baby.” She paused. “It’s weird, right? Before all of this, the resistance was enough, but now… I needmore, and the baby, it’s… I’m ready for this.”
I was not ready for this. Not at all.
“You, um, I have scans and holopics at various levels of development and recordings of her heartbeat—it’s a girl, by the way—and you can see her little hooves, and—do you want to see them?”
“Fuck,” I said, reeling. “A girl?”
“Uh huh.”
“Yeah, I want that.Yes. Um, please.”
“Okay,” she said. “We’ll stay in touch. Wewillfigure this out.”
