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“I’m so glad you think so. He’s a wonderful man, and I try my hardest to be the best wife I can be for him, despite his hardheadedness,” I finally answer, pulling myself out of my thoughts.

“But thank you for sharing this with me,” I continue, wanting to wrap up our conversation so I can go find Kaden. “I truly appreciate it. It’s amazing to finally learn the part of his past that he doesn’t talk about. Maybe it will help me help him even more. And Mrs. Williams, I hope someday he’ll finally accept you as his mother.”

I get up off the sofa and embrace her. She’s sobbing softly as I do, and I can tell she needs a minute. So I decide it’s the ideal time to excuse myself and take a minute to console Kaden.

“I’ll give you a minute here and go find him. I’ll try and see if I can talk some sense into him and get him to enjoy the rest of the evening. I’m so glad to be here, and I’ll be right back,” I say, walking out of the living room to the place where I saw Kaden go last.

I walk for a few minutes until I spot the balcony where he is. Taking a deep breath, I ready myself for an attempt at repairing some damage and open the glass door carefully.

14

KADEN

Aconsuming mix of emotions surrounds my heart as I embrace Amber. I can’t help but feel like I really need this hug but only from her. I feel safe and warm inside. I’m not sure how to describe the emotions, but the old spark is continuing to try and flare up.

I pull back from her, pausing just long enough to crush out the tip of my burning cigar before wrapping my arm around her again. She snuggles into me, her head on my chest as we sit silently, drinking in the peacefulness of the night.

Hours of silence pass before I feel I have the nerve to walk through the house again, long enough to get to the front door.

“Are you ready to go home?” I ask Amber quietly. She quickly nods her head yes, and I help her up. I can only think about getting home to my lovely, comfortable bed with her as we walk inside.

She thanks everyone, faking a migraine to get us out of dinner.What a saint she is.Everyone says their goodbyes, and we return to the car.

When we arrive home, Amber excuses herself to the bathroom to prepare herself for bed. I get ready in the bedroom at the same time.

I’ll feel better having her lie with me. I haven’t been at peace like she brings me for quite some time. Plus, I owe her an explanation for my actions this evening,I think to myself as I strip out of my clothes and into a pair of basketball shorts.

Amber appears out of the bathroom and sits on the edge of my bed. She stares at me without judgment, warmth radiating from her eyes.

“Hey, I was wondering if you’d like to lie closer to me tonight?” I ask abruptly.Fuck, that’s not how I want to ask.“I was thinking maybe we could talk about tonight, and I’d feel better if you were closer,” I quickly continue, trying to recover the conversation.

Amber smiles, trying to hide any reaction to me stumbling over myself. “I would love that, Kaden,” she finally says.

My heart’s pounding at her agreement as we settle into bed. I wrap my arm around her, pulling her into my body again. Warmth radiates off her, and it’s incredibly comforting to me as I try to find the right words to explain. She lays her head on my chest, patiently waiting for me to begin.

After a few minutes of me trying to find the right words, Amber breaks the silence. “I’m sorry tonight was rough on you, Kaden. I might know, in a way, how you feel. The money you loaned me was because my father passed away in a car accident,” she says softly.

My gaze quickly shifts from the ceiling to her face as I look at her. Did she think I forgot? I remember everything about her from those days.

“I remember that,” I say simply. “I’m so sorry you had to go through that and everything after his death...” I reply. I knew how they struggled with the debt he left behind, not to mention his medical bills and funeral. It was all very overwhelming at the time, and I had been happy to take some of that burden away from them.

Amber glances up to meet my gaze, never taking her head off my chest. “Your stepmom told me why you resent her. If you need someone to talk to, Kaden, please talk to me,” she says, her soft tone breaking me down emotionally.

“I just have a hard time, I guess,” I say with my voice cracking, “I struggle with an internal battle. On the one hand, I resent my father for moving on. I mourned the loss of a fantastic woman, someone I thought he would have been devastated to lose. And instead of mourning for her, he started a new family. It didn’t seem like he struggled the way I did. Like I still do.”

Amber looks at me, and I can’t help but notice how soft and kind her eyes are. “On the other hand?” she gently prompts me to finish.

I sigh deeply as I struggle to find the words to explain how the other side of me feels. “On the other hand, I know my stepmother wants me to accept and love her. Truthfully, she’s good to me, which showed tonight in how she acted toward you. I just can’t help but feel like it should have been my mom meeting you tonight,” I say finally.

I notice Amber rubbing my chest with her soft hand, her eyes never leaving mine. I feel she genuinely listens to me and cares about how I feel. I haven’t felt like someone actually listens to me since Amber and I were separated the first time. I feel like I belong around her.

Amber doesn’t say anything in return, seeming to ponder my words carefully. Truthfully, I don’t need her to say anything more. I already feel like a weight is lifting off my shoulders.

I roll over to look at her and immediately notice how seductive my wife is. Her black satin night dress complements her skin very well, and I can’t help but let my self-control slip as my hand suddenly falls to her thigh, making contact with her bare skin.

She glances down at it for a moment, and then quickly, her head snaps back to meet my gaze.She’s so sexy, but how am I allowing myself to lose control? I’m scared of what her reaction will be at my sudden lapse in judgment...

Suddenly, she answers my thoughts and lunges forward, pressing her soft lips on mine. I don’t make an effort to stop her. In fact, I push toward her. I feel her mouth part and her tongue dart out, slipping between my teeth. Mine quickly meets it, and I enjoy the feeling of our tongues dancing together.

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