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I groaned. “What do you want from me, Autumn?”
I could see all the buildup in her eyes, days of anticipation, longing, and desire in her gaze as she hesitantly leaned forward, placing her hands on my chest. Slowly, she brought her lips to meet mine. It started off with just a peck until she opened her mouth, seeking out my tongue.
This was all her now, showing me everything I’d taught her. I let it go on. Carelessly letting my walls and reserve come crumbling down. I’d spent the last two weeks feeling like a dick, but I couldn’t continue with her. Not after Christian warned me she was off limits again. I remembered the first time he’d threatened me. She had just turned fifteen. Even back then he’d suspected something might eventually occur between Autumn and me.
Her kiss had me on the verge of fucking losing myself, getting lost in the moment. Becoming lost in her. A man could only take so much, and I was at my breaking point.
I wanted her.
In every way possible.
And more…
I never stopped kissing her, hovering above her heady frame, causing her breathing to escalate when she realized she was getting to me.
“For fuck’s sake, what are you doing to me, Autumn?” I rested my forehead on hers, looking down at her swollen lips.
She was so beautiful.
So loving.
So fucking mine.
The way she was looking at me as if I was everything she’d ever wanted simply encouraged me to keep going. I couldn’t help myself. I never could with her. I kissed her more aggressively than before, crashing our lips together. Chastising myself mentally the entire time as I continued to consume her mouth.
Her hands went to the back of my neck, pulling me closer, but not nearly close enough. The kiss turned urgent and demanding, as she met each and every pull I was delivering. It was full of emotion, mixed with pure lust and something else I’d never felt before.
My hands continued to roam over her body. Knowing I was the only man to have ever touched her this way was doing all sorts of things to my cock, like it always did. She tilted her head back, giving my lips more access to her flushed skin. My mouth moved, kissing from her neck down to her collarbone, stopping just above her breasts that were rising and falling with every movement of my lips.
I ran my tongue along her nipple, leaving goose bumps in its wake. Looking up at her through hooded eyes, I lightly blew her aroused flesh, watching her come undone in the way she always did. My mouth kissed down her stomach, savoring the elevated heat of her body pressed against mine, getting hotter with each caress of my lips, touching her skin as I made my way to where I wanted to kiss her the most.
A moan escaped her lips.
And that was my undoing. Like a fucking atomic bomb dropping on my head, my mind took the control back from my cock, realizing what I was just about to do. Having sex with her wasn’t going to do anything other than lead us back to square one.
I jumped off the bed, leaving her there panting and exposed. Breathless and stirred. I tried to shake off all the emotions she’d triggered inside of me. Holding my head between my hands, I paced around the room. Knowing I’d just royally fucked up.
AGAIN.
I took a deep breath while grabbing my hoodie off the chair and tossed it at her. “Put some clothes on,” I snapped, mostly pissed at myself for letting it go this far.
The last thing I wanted to do was to lead her on more than I already had, and it was all I had done since day one. I walked out onto our patio, leaving the slider open behind me. Leaning over the railing, I needed to calm down. She stepped out shortly after, closing the slider behind her.
“Hey…” She grabbed my arm, turning me to face her. “What happened back there?”
“I can’t do this with you anymore. This is my fault. I never should have kissed you, or crossed the line with you. But throwing yourself at me isn’t the right answer either. I stole all your firsts—it’s why you think you’re in love with me. It’s an illusion. You’re young, and I should have known better. I’m the adult here, and I took advantage of you. I fuck, Autumn. I’m not your boyfriend—you’re just my best friend’s little sister.” I regretted the words as soon as they came out of my mouth, and she jerked back like I had slapped her in the face, and I guess in a way I had.
“Kid…” I reached for her, but she stepped back.
“Just your best friend’s little sister?” she repeated, hurt and dismayed. She stood taller, eyeing me up and down. “You’re not fooling anyone but yourself, Julian. You’re a coward, a fucking pussy, who’s pushing me away because I’m getting too close to you. You’re in love with me too! You can pretend and deny it all you want, but I know you. I feel you. You can fight it all you want, but we’re connected in a way that even you can’t destroy. We’re soulmates whether you want to be or not.” She stepped toward me, getting right up in my face. “If you didn’t love me, then you wouldn’t have chased away Daniel—you wouldn’t have been jealous! You wouldn’t have dry fucked me on my birthday. You claimed me. Making sure your lips, your hands, your fingers, your tongue and cock were all my firsts. You made damn sure it was only your touch, your scent, your body that I’d remember.”
“Autumn—”
“You want me to be yours, and that fucking scares you more than anything, because you’ve never wanted that from anyone else. Not any of the women you’ve slept with. My brother will understand, and if he doesn’t, then I don’t fucking care! This is my life, and I want you in it in every possible way.”
I arched an eyebrow and cocked my head to the side. “You think you got me all figured out? Well, here’s the truth, sweetheart. I don’t love you. I’m not in love with you. You’re not my girlfriend and I don’t want you to be. I’m sorry I risked my friendship for you, but you’re not worth the sacrifice.
She shook her head, her eyes immediately watering with tears.
