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I’m pissed.
I really liked Tony. My heart feels almost broken in a way. I let him in too far, too soon. That’s definitely a fatal flaw that I will just have to live with. I let myself get swept up.What an idiot…
But, I’ll move on.
I have to.
If life has taught me anything, it’s that you just have to keep moving.
I can’t even bring myself to sleep in my bed. It’s tainted with memories of him. Smells like him…
Feelslike him. Every time I touch it, the memories burst like fireworks. It’s like his hands are on me again. It’s like I can feel his breath against my skin…
I had to get a whole new bed after Edoardo…
It was like being with him every day, but combined with a loneliness I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. It surrounded me so deeply and so darkly that I wasn’t sure I was ever going to see the light of day again.
Could I trust someone again after this? It had taken years to let someone in enough …and now Tony had set me back all over again.
Would everyone just end up betraying me?
I am who I am. I’m the Queen of Chicago. Would that always make me a target?
The last few days have been pretty rough, I’m not going to lie. I’m off my game.
I feel lost. I’m still trying to figure out where to go from here. Do I keep his plan and keep moving forward with it?
Would he tell Madam Rosa and the rest of the Giordio’s our plan against the Colombos?
Would he somehow tell the Colombos?
I mean, what a coincidence, right?
Were they working together?
Has every plan I’ve been making and working on for the last few weeks just gone to shit now?I don’t want to put everyone in danger again, especially on account of me being an idiot and wearing my heart on my sleeve.
Only the council knows what actually happened.
I’m ashamed.
How could I let someone break down my walls like this? How could I make us this vulnerable?
I don’t want to worry anyone. But I’m scared.
For the first time in a long time.
And not for me.
For the Lorenzos. For the Morinos…
For my kids…
I continue traveling to and from clubs and hangouts, looking for the best of the worst. Which monsters could be controlled and which ones couldn’t?
That’s the real question here.
Who would be good for numbers… but also not betray me…
