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“Why didn’t you offer to put some things back when you realized how much you’d spent?”
“I was embarrassed, I guess. And I—I didn’t really want to.”
Nick frowned, but he didn’t look nearly as angry as she figured she deserved. If anything, he just looked confused. “I suppose I can understand that. Why were you feeling hurt and lonely?”
It figured he would latch on to that little detail. “It’s silly.”
“Darlin’, if it’s hurting you, it’s not silly.”
It still felt silly, but there was no way she was going to get away withnottelling him, so she might as well get it over with. “This morning I kinda thought the three of us were going to spend the day together. And then Allie went off with her friends and you had to go to work, and I was just feeling a little… lost.”
“Oh, so this is my fault?” Apparently unable to hold back any longer, Allie threw her hands up in the air. “You couldn’t have, I don’t know, just told me you wanted to spend the day together?”
“No, I’m not saying that, of course it’s not your fault, Allie. I was just…”
“What?” Allie snapped when Michelle trailed off. “You were just what, Michelle? Stubborn? Selfish?”
“Enough!” Nick jabbed a finger at the bare corner of their room. “March, little girl.”
“No!” Voice rising well past the point Michelle would have usually allowed, Allie fisted her hands on her hips and shot them both equally venomous glares. “I’m part of this, too! I’m the one she made a promise to and then broke without even thinking about it, apparently. I deserve to have a voice!”
“You can have a voice when you’re not saying hurtful things.” By contrast, Nick’s voice was dangerously calm. “Get your butt in that corner, or I will go get the soap. One.”
“That’s not fair!”
“I was jealous!” The words exploded out of her, effectively silencing the escalating fight. Nick and Allie turned as one to stare at her, nearly identical expressions of shock on their faces.
“Jealous?” Allie asked, her brows drawing together in obvious confusion. “What on Earth do you have to be jealous of?”
“I don’t know, and that’s what’s driving me so crazy! I love you and I love being your Big. And I have genuinely loved submitting to Nick. It’s like a part of me has been reawakened and it’s scary and wonderful all at the same time. But it also feels like something just isn’t quite right and I don’t know what it is. Like, every time you call Nick ‘Daddy’, I just get this pang in my stomach, and I can tell it’s jealousy, but I just don’t knowwhy.”
“Michelle.” Nick hesitated, obviously weighing his words carefully. “Do you want me to be your Daddy, too?”
“No.” But the denial felt hollow. “I don’t know. I’m not Little.”
That much she was sure of. Just the thought of joining Allie and her friends felt fundamentally wrong in a way she couldn’t explain.
“Darlin’. You don’t have to be Little to have a Daddy.”
“I don’t?” The idea was so foreign to her, she couldn’t quite wrap her mind around it.
“Nope.”
“Then, how is that any different from you just being my Sir?”
“It doesn’t have to be any different,” he said with a shrug. “It can just be the title you chose for me. Or it can mean you let me handle all the Big stuff from now on and you let me take care of you, just like I take care of Allie.”
“I don’t know.” As tempting as it was, she wasn’t quite ready to give up all of her control in the relationship. Being Allie’s Big filled a need within her, and she doubted that would change just because they had Nick now. “Does that mean I won’t get to spank Allie anymore?”
That seemed to trip him up, and there was a long silence before he spoke again. “How about this? When it’s just you two, like when you go back home, your dynamic can work just like it used to. But if you have to punish Allie, you have to report it to me. And when it’s all three of us together, you don’t spank her unless I give you permission. That way, there’s no doubt about who is always in charge, but you still get to indulge your Toppy side. Sound fair?”
“Maybe.” A million questions and doubts were swirling together in her mind, but she already felt lighter than she had all day. “But if it’s not working, we can talk about it?”
“Of course, darlin’.”
“Okay.” The more she sat with the idea, the more right it felt. “I think I might like to try that.”
“Allie? Does that work for you?”
