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“I think we should stay in this exact position forever,” he mumbles, and it’s muffled by my hair, but I’ve heard it and the insane solution I have jumps to the forefront of my mind.
I could stay here forever. I want to, and maybe for once, I can fight to chase my own happiness.
“What if I knew how to fix everything?” I whisper so softly, hoping he didn’t hear it. I’m scared to utter the solution I’ve not been able to let go of. I’m scared he heard me and that he’ll break my heart way before the actual wedding. That it’ll result in a non-breakup.
Chester rolls to his side and pushes his head up with his arm. He’s frowning, and it shows that he doesn’t understand my question.
“What are you talking about?” he says. His hand reaches out to move my hair out of my face.
“I know how I don’t have to marry Thomas Meyer.” The second those words are said, I can’t move backwards anymore. It’s a push forward and there’s no way back from the subject I’ve just opened. It could be Pandora's box or it could be my ticket to happiness. It all depends on how Chester will react. I only know that if he refuses, we’re done, and I’m on the next train to my own personal nightmare.
A surprised smile grows on his lips before he leans forward to kiss my cheek softly. With his lips against my skin, he whispers playfully.
“Do you now?” He doesn’t believe me because recently, everything looked dark and futile with no way out of my mess. But I have a solution, and I’m not certain he’ll feel the same way about it, but I owe it to us to give it my best shot.
“I do, Chester. I know a way that I don’t have to marry Thomas Meyer.” My voice is serious, and Chester withdraws with a confused look on his face, all playfulness gone.
“You’re serious?”
“I am.” He sighs before lying down on his back. His chest moves up and down, and my heart is racing away and I get nervous. A heavy silence falls over us, and it makes me even more anxious. It is a mistake, and the longer he stays quiet, the more I fear I ruined everything.
Chester faces me again, and a second later, that hopeful, beautiful smile graces his lips. He reaches out to grab my hip and pulls me closer to his naked chest. I drop my hand on his heart, feeling how it beats beneath me, strong and fast, and I’m certain mine matches his.
Yet, his smile gives me hope that maybe he’ll agree. Maybe he’ll see it from my perspective. I need it to work because I can’t let go of him.
I won’t let go.
“So, what’s your solution then, because, princess, I’m all ears.” I can’t manage to smile back because I’m ready for the other shoe to drop. And it will drop. Chester is flying in the clouds already, but he’ll tumble down soon. And yet, there’s still a flame deep inside me that believes it could end well.
“I… I think the only way to get out of marrying Thomas is to… marry someone else.” His face drops along with my heart.
Oh God.
More nerves are fluttering through my body, and this time, it matches and mixes with fear because Chester chuckles out of amusement before a shocking expression takes over.
“I’m sorry, what?” There’s a strain on his face, and he pushes himself up on one of his elbows to look at me better.
“I have to marry someone else,” I whisper, hoping he’ll understand what I’m trying to tell him. His mouth falls open, and the shock changes into disbelief. My fear only increases, the longer Chester stares at me. I shouldn’t have breached the subject. I should have kept my mouth shut because it’s going to ruin everything.
“What the fuck, Evangeline? That’s no solution. You’re just going to marry another bastard to escape the first one?” He doesn’t understand because Chester has no plans to ever marry. He can’t even fathom that I’m referring to him. It’s impossible for him, and it makes me even more anxious when I predict how this conversation will end.
My heart will be broken, and I don’t think I’ll find the strength to cure it again.
“Who are you going to marry, then?” There’s anger in the tone of his voice and the muscles in his forearm flex and unflex. It’s over, and it hurts. It cuts and claws at me, but still, I keep pushing forward.
“You.” My heart breaks into a million pieces because he jerks backwards as if I’ve hit him. Chester blinks repeatedly, and he swallows visibly.
“What?” he says stunned, and I sit up, tugging the blanket up to my neck.
“I talked to Frederic, and he agreed that if I found someone else, then he won’t force me to marry Thomas,” I explain, secretly hoping that he’ll change his mind. That he’ll open his thoughts to the possibility. But his face doesn’t change. It shows the exact same shocking gaze as before.
“Are you joking?” he whispers, and I hear the pain in his voice.
“I’m not, Chester.” The tears are already pushing behind my eyelids. They’ll fall because my heart is bleeding. It’s deteriorating, and I only have myself to blame for it.
“Do you know what you’re asking of me?”
“It’s what my brother asked of me.”
