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A thought hit me at that moment. I didn’t know how many minutes passed as I only sat there, but in a second, I realized everything around me. Kira was again sitting up next to me, and when I looked towards her, I saw that she was softly crying. It was a sight I couldn’t stomach.
I so slowly reached out and brushed her tears away as she sniffed and looked into my eyes. My jaw flexed with what I was about to ask, but I had to. It might be the reason she was crying. It might make a difference for her. “Is it…” I started. I couldn’t continue. When I said it out loud, it sounded too horrible to ask her that.
She looked at me with confusion for a few seconds, and then realization dawned on her. “Is it yours?”
I gritted my teeth and nodded. I didn’t want her to think it mattered if it wasn’t. It was not like I was going to be angry because she got pregnant from her rapists. But I needed to know so I could understand how she felt about it. The father might mean something to her. But if it didn’t, it wouldn’t mean something to me as well. It was a part of Kira. I would love it anyway. I would be their father if she wanted me to, regardless of DNA.
But I needed to know to understand. So, I could help her better.
Kira looked stunned for a moment, like the possibility had not even occurred to her. And it made me feel good. Not because it proved it was mine before she said anything but because they didn’t even come to her mind. Their memory was distant to her.
She swallowed thickly and shook her head after a few seconds. “I was on my period when you kidnapped me. I also always used condoms with them.”
“Okay,” I murmured. I still had no idea what to say. I never even considered something like this could happen, which was so very dumb because we had been having unprotected sex for the last two months.
I was too busy between dealing with the Bratva and spending time with Kira. I only cared that she was near me. I never had a partner before, so I was not good at paying attention to these things.
Though Kira must have been.
“When did you find out?”
She winced like I hit her. I had no idea why the fuck she was acting like that, but I sat a little far away from her to make her feel more comfortable. She still seemed too tense, though. “I am not sure yet. I only now realized I haven’t had my period. Priscilla was out getting me a test.”
I hated that Priscilla knew about it before me, but I was also glad she didn’t have to face it alone. But that was the point. She didn’t have to face it alone. I would be here in a heartbeat if she only called me. Why couldn’t she saw that? Why was she not comforted with me like other times?
Maybe she was worried I was going to make her give birth even though she didn’t want to. It would hurt me if she got rid of it but pushing Kira to do something she didn’t want to would kill me.
“How late are you?” I asked even though I knew she never had a period after she came here.
“Longer than a month,” she said and winced again. “I haven’t noticed by now because I didn’t know the date. I thought it had been less time.”
“I understand.”
She shook her head and took a shaky breath.Oh, please don’t cry again, my love. “I know it was my fault. I didn’t want to use condoms. It was stupid, but I never thought this could happen. I thought I was going to be dead in a few weeks. I am sorry.” She covered her face with her hands.
She was crying again, and my heart was shredding into pieces. I got closer to her and peeled her hands from her face,pressed a kiss to the scar on her wrist.“Kira, please don’t cry.”
“I am sorry.”
I kissed her wet cheeks softly, tasting her sorrow and hating it. “It is not your fault, darling. I could have stopped you, but I didn’t. I knew the date and still didn’t realize you were late. I am the one to blame.”
And fuck me, she winced again in my hold. What was I doing wrong?
Thankfully next, she buried her face into my neck and wept into my skin.Just like that,I thought.Give all your pain to me so I can carry it for you.
I caressed her hair, her back, her arm. “It is okay, darling. Let’s wait for Priscilla so we can be sure. After that, we will talk about what we are going to do. We are going to fix this.”
And she cried even harder.
It didn’t take long for Priscilla to come. When she came upstairs looking for Kira, and she saw us together, her eyes widened. I left Kira alone in our room for a minute and stepped out to the hall to talk with my sister.
“She told you?” asked Priscilla.
No, I put a gun to her head, so she had to tell me because she was too fucking scared.“Something like that.”
She nodded absently. “What do you think?”
“I don’t know what I should think,” I answered truthfully. “I just want to make sure so we can plan what to do.”
