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“Bye Momma, be good. I stay home with uncles and Daddy.” Everyone freezes, and no one utters a single word for a solid minute.
“He saidDaddy!” Beck whispers. Dawson frowns as he looks around the room to find us all staring at him. Beck’s laughter is what breaks the tension, I stare at him in surprise as he places the book on the small table next to the sofa then reaches down to lift our son up and places him on his naked shoulders. Oh God, the sight of Beckett in nothing but a pair of black shorts and our son on his shoulders has me getting hot and breathless.
“Oh snap, Becky is a DILF!”
“Goldie!” Darius snaps at Leah, who just giggles. I nod my agreement because she is right, Beckett Dawson is adadI’d like to fuck. “I’m standing right fucking here!”
“Language!” Saint and Crue shout in unison, making us all laugh again. Everyone has been trying to not cuss around Dawson. My laughter dies off the moment I look back to Beck. My breath hitches when I see the raw hunger in his gaze as he looks down at me. Even when we have had sex recently he has never looked at me like this. Before I can read too much into it, Leah grips my arm and pulls me after her.
“Hurry up before Darius murders me!” she says on a laugh as we rush out the front door. The girls break out into fits of laughter but I don’t join in, my mind is still stuck on the look in Beck’s eyes. The memory of it sends a shiver down my spine.
“You have a death wish,” Cody jests. Leah rolls her eyes and shrugs.
“Darius knows I love him but Becky is just… my Becky.” Jealousy runs through me at Leah calling Beckhers. I want to stomp my foot and tell her that he’s mine but I can’t. Truthfully, I have no idea what the hell we are, it’s not like either of us have said anything on the matter.
“Well, at least you know where you stand,” Cody says solemnly.
Leah cringes. “Corvin still holding you at arm’s length?” she asks. Cody nods her head as she drops her gaze to the ground. Saint reaches out and grabs Katie’s bag, yanking her back into his side so I quicken my pace to stand on Cody’s other side to give them some semblance of privacy.
“He won’t even talk to me!” Cody breathes out.
“Why?” I ask.
“I told him I loved him Christmas Eve and he walked out of the room and refuses to acknowledge that I said it. Every time I bring it up or try to talk to him he just walks away or we fight. Before when we would fight, we would have the best makeup sex but now, it’s like he can’t even touch me.” I cringe feeling horrible for my friend.
“Corv is a dick if he can’t see how amazing you are.” Cody smiles at Leah, but it doesn’t reach her eyes. God, I hope that I don’t end up like Cody, pining after Beck and watching him fall for another girl, that would crush me.
Beckett
Crue, Corvin, Darius and I sit around in the living room with our laptops on our laps trying to work while Dawson plays with his toys on the mat. I keep looking at my screen then to the book Val gave me this morning. I’m dying to open it but I’m terrified if I open it all my anger will come rushing to the surface. We fight every day and fuck the night away, honestly sometimes I think we pick fights just so we can guarantee that we’ll fuck each night. Having her and Dawson around has been fucking amazing. Waking up next to her each morning feels so fucking right.
“Just open it!” I snap my gaze to the other sofa to see both Darius and Corvin staring at me expectantly. “Dude, we can hear you thinking about it from over here, just open the bloody book.” I scowl at Corvin as I close the lid on my laptop and decide to handle the work shit later. But with me now not going to Alaska, we had to hire someone else to take on the task of learning the ropes of each resort. I take a calming breath to try to steady my nerves as I open the book. The first thing that greets me is a picture of a pregnancy test and an ultrasound that has nine weeks written beneath it. I turn the page and see another set of two, one is of Valance and another one is of me from when I was sixteen, I had no idea she even took this picture, on the other page is a note.
Hello my baby,
That’s me, your momma, and that handsome man in the other picture is your daddy. You may never get to hear his voice while you are growing inside me but I promise you that his voice sounds better than mine. I’m sorry he won’t be here when you arrive, Momma tried to look for Daddy but I couldn’t find him. We won’t be able to stay at Tammy’s for much longer, I don’t know where we’ll go but one thing I know for sure is, I’ll do whatever I have to make sure you’ll be safe.
I flick through the book and read all the other notes she has left and view the pictures of Dawson when he was born, his first tooth, she really did document everything for me in the chance we did see each other again. I grab the USB from the back of the book and plug it into my computer, I shove my air pods in my ears before I press play, and immediately the sound of her anguished cry hits my ears. Val looks so young, the fear in her blue eyes cripples me. I search around her for her mother but see no one but the nurses and doctor, fuck, she gave birth to our son alone.
“Miss Karver, you are dilated and can start pushing,” the doctor says from between her legs, Val shakes her head.
“I can’t. His father should be here, I can’t do this without him.” My heart breaks inside my chest, I slam my eyes closed as guilt eats me.
“We can’t stop this, you need to push,” the doctor says, firmer this time. Tears trek down Val’s cheeks as she mumbles,
“I’m so sorry, Beck.” Tears prick the backs of my eyes, she’s so fucking strong. She did all of this on her own. She birthed our child, fed and clothed him even when she was living at different shelters. She got her GED and managed to snag a scholarship to our college because of how fucking smart she is. She busted her ass working to provide for our child, fuck. I made sure she has an account with enough money to set her up for life, I’ll never allow the mother of my child to ever want for anything when I have the money to make sure she doesn’t need to. “Oh my God.” I look back to the screen and gasp, the doctor holds Dawson out to Val. She grabs him and tucks him against her chest as tears trail down her cheeks.
“Congratulations, you have a healthy baby boy,” one of the nurses says. Val thanks them but doesn’t take her eyes off our boy. I don’t realize I’m crying until my tears land on the keyboard. I let them fall unchecked as I watch the girl who taught me how to love, fall in love with our son.
“Do you have a name for him?” a nurse asks. Val nods and smiles down at our boy.
“Yeah, I’ll name him after his daddy, Matthew Karver Dawson,” she whispers before the video cuts out. I close my eyes and soak in everything I have just seen and read. I’ve been a real prick to Val since the moment I saw her at the cabin. She didn’t deserve that, fuck. I scrub a hand down my face as I think back to that first day, how I took Dawson from her and had the guys drag her away.
“You good, brother?” I open my eyes and look over at Darius and nod. He and Corvin both have looks of concern on their faces.
“Yeah, brother, I’m better than good,” I answer.
Crue snorts from beside me and says, “Not for long.” The humor in his tone throws me until he hands me his phone to show me a picture Saint just sent him. It’s of that Jeff cunt with his arm aroundmyfucking girl’s waist.
