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“I want everyone to get the fuck out of my house. I want you all gone.” I bark.
I run upstairs. The door to our bedroom is ajar. I find Ava packing a bag. I hear her sobs. I want to hold her, make her feel better. I want to tell her this is all a lie. That everything is going to be ok. I want to erase the night I slept with Fiona. I want to erase the last fifteen minutes. I was wrong to keep it from her. I know that now. If Fiona is in fact pregnant with my child there is no changing that. But there is nothing I can say to her that will make this right. Seeing her, the pain I've caused her, it's breaking me. I would do anything to take it all back. I have no idea what I can say to make her stay and listen to me. I refuse to let this be our end. I refuse to lose her.
“Ava, stop. It’s not what you think.”
“You, who knows everything, what is it that I am thinking? Please tell me. Because I don’t even know myself. This is beyond...” She stops mid sentence.
“It was a mistake. I was drunk. I didn’t know it was Fiona.”
“Is that supposed to make me feel better?” She chuckles.
“I want to be with you. You are the only woman for me. I’ll make things right. I am sorry I didn’t tell you. I couldn’t risk losing you. I can’t lose you.”
“I trusted you. I gave myself to you. I loved you for what? You have given me nothing but heartache.”
“Ava,” I start.
Chapter Fifty-Six
Ava
“What? You aren’t capable of being a one woman man. It’s not in your DNA. I should have known. I was fooling myself.” I tell him as I pack.
“You aren’t going anywhere until I explain.”
“There is nothing to explain. It doesn’t matter what you say. This was just pretending for you. It was a job.”
“You can’t leave. You haven’t finished paying your debt.”
“Seriously?” I scream. “After everything you’ve put me through you are going to blackmail me? You can’t be that big of an asshole.”
“Ava,” he pulls me to him.
“What more do you want from me? I have given you everything. My dreams, my love, fuck my soul. I have nothing left to give.” I can’t help the tears.
“Ava,” he starts.
“Viktor, this wasn’t meant to be forever. You reminded me of that every single day. It was me who for a second forgot I was just an employee. That this was just an arrangement. My father’s debt paid off if I gave you a year. It’s fair to say our year has come to an end. I’m never getting back the time we spent together. I can live with that. But I refuse to give you any more time. I thought I could do this. I thought you were different. But this wasn’t real for you. You wear a veil not letting anyone see who you truly are. But I finally see you for who you really are. A man who takes without regard for others.” I see anger and pain cross his eyes.
“You are making me out to be a monster. I fucking love you. I made a mistake.”
“What do you expect me to do? Stay here and be your mistress? You don’t even know what you want. You are being cruel keeping me here with you after what you have done. Were you ever going to tell me or were you taking it to the grave?” I feel my tears coming down. “I didn’t want to admit it but I knew this day would come. I prayed I would be wrong. I can’t keep making excuses for your behavior. You are selfish.” He grabs me and pulls me to him.
“I love you.”
“If you did, you would have not slept with her and she wouldn’t be carrying your baby. I thought you were incapable of hurting me. I thought those days were behind us. But you aren’t the man I thought you were. You are the man who has broken me. I knew, whether I was willing to admit it or not, that you were going to break my heart and you have.”
I manage to free myself from his grip or he lets me go. I don’t know or care. I trusted that despite all of our differences he would always be true to me. But it was all a lie. We were lying to ourselves. They probably laid in bed laughing about me. Every time I look at him all I see is her in his arms. There is no way I can stay with him. I won’t survive it.
“It’s better this way. You can finally find peace with your father. I won’t be the reason you can’t sleep at night. You won’t have to give up anything more because of me.” I add zipping my bag without looking at him.
“I…” He starts but stops.
“She is having your baby. I would never get between you and your baby. Your father made himself clear. You have to do the honorable thing and as much as it pains me he is right. I love you but you have to let me go.”
“I won’t.”
“I can’t stay here. I can’t look at you and not picture you with her. It’s time for me to go.” I take off my ring that held so much promise once upon a time. A future that will never come. I take a step towards him. I give him a gentle kiss on the cheek. “Goodbye.” I leave, setting the ring on the dresser.
