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All the hurt and pain in my head and body disappeared with her in my arms.
One day, Ella, one day I’ll be the man you deserve, I promised her in my thoughts. Promised myself, too.
But until then . . .
LETTER
ELLA
JESSE,
God, it was good seeing you again. Wish Rory could’ve made it, though.
But I swear, it feels like whenever you and I breathe in the same air lately, I get a little dizzy. But last weekend, spending time with Marcus and his wife made me realize how much I want what they have one day.
But is it still a wild idea to want that with you? I want you to be my someone. My forever. You keep pushing me away, though. Even Rory and A.J., too, from what I’ve heard. I’m worried about you.
Talk to A.J. He knows what you’re going through. He’s living it, too. Let him be there for you since you won’t let me in.
Missing you already and you’re not even mine to miss.
Love,
Ella
P.S. - I sketched a wedding dress design. The one I’d wear if we were ever to, well . . . you know.
LETTER
JESSE
DEAR ELLA,
Not that you’ll ever read this letter, but I need to get my thoughts down. Seeing you again last month . . . I think my heart stopped.
Watching Marcus and Savanna together made me wish that . . . well, is it crazy to wish that one day that could be us holding hands? Happily married?
Hell, you don’t even know I love you. And I do. I just wish I could say the words out loud.
Maybe we can never be together, and maybe that’s okay if it means you’re better off without me. But I hope somehow you know how much you mean to me.
My heart really is yours, Ella. And every time I see you, I have to work so hard to keep my feelings hidden. But God, it’s just so hard. The pain I feel each day away from you is unbearable, and the only thing that keeps me going are the photos I have of you in my wallet. I look at them every day, and they remind me of the beautiful woman I love. Envisioning a life with you brings me joy. Hot summer days on your ranch with a cold drink in hand. Your sun-kissed skin and the way you smell . . . That’s enough to keep me going here. Keep me surviving.
I don’t know if I’m enough for you, Ella. I’ve made mistakes in my life, and I’ve done things that I’m not proud of. And because you’re the most amazing woman I know, you’ve still been there even if I don’t deserve that. But I’d do anything for you, even if it means sacrificing my own happiness to make sure you’re kept safe.
Always yours,
Jesse
P.S—If you could convince my sister to dump her boyfriend and quit treasure hunting, that’d be great. Just the idea of her job is giving me an ulcer. And she won’t listen to me. Maybe she’ll listen to you.
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LETTER
ELLA
JESSE,
