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Chris cleared his throat and quietly asked, “Does that mean you’re a virgin? From a gay perspective.”
“Hmm, yeah, I suppose I am.” Thinking of himself as a virgin felt weird, although it was technically accurate.
Chris nodded and chewed on his bottom lip, seeming to be deep in thought.
“What is it?” Anthony asked.
“What? Oh, nothing, just thinking. It’s dumb, really. Forget it.” He took a sip of his water.
Anthony nudged him with his knee. “Come on, spill it.”
Chris lowered the glass and looked Anthony in the eyes for a long moment before finally saying, “Maybe I can help you with that.”
“Help me find a guy to sleep with? You have someone at work to set me up with?” That would indeed make meeting someone easier, although it might be a bit too soon considering Anthony was still fighting to get out of bed most mornings. Also, if it was someone from Chris’s firm, it meant he was high-class, and that added more pressure on Anthony to get his act together.
Chris shook his head. “No-no, nothing like that. I mean, maybe I can be the one you sleep with.”
The words echoed in Anthony’s head as silence filled the room. He finally managed to say, “Hmm, I don’t think you’re saying what I think you’re saying.”
“What do you think I’m saying?” Chris’s voice went a bit deeper.
Anthony couldn’t say the words because they were too ridiculous to be spoken.
“Ant, come on. What do you think I’m saying?”
“Well, it sounds like you’re saying you want to have sex with me.” He chuckled. It sounded ever crazier out loud.
Chris nodded slowly. “That’s right.”
Anthony needed to remind himself how to breathe because apparently that was a thing a person could forget. “But you’re straight, and you’re married.”
“I don’t need to be a certified gay to try something out with a man.” He leaned a little closer. “I also want it to be with someone I actually like and care about, so yeah, I want it to be with you.”
Anthony couldn’t move or speak. He used to fantasize about Chris when they’d just met almost a decade before, but it had stopped once their small group grew closer and Chris became more like a brother than a gorgeous friend. The thought of having his old fantasy coming to life when he was at the lowest point of his life was a lot to take in— maybe too much.
Chris moved closer and put his palm on Anthony’s leg, above the knee. “You seem upset. Do you want me to go?”
“N-no.”
“Look at me.”
The muscles in his neck felt stiff as he forced his head to turn toward Chris. His eyes were so blue and piercing, they made Anthony’s chest ache.
“What are you afraid of?” Chris asked.
“That it might be awkward. That we’ll stop talking afterward. That you won’t like it because I don’t know what I’m doing. That—"
Chris put two fingers on Anthony’s lips. “It won’t be awkward because we’re two adults who can handle stepping out of our comfort zone, and the sex will be amazing becauseI’llmake you feel amazing.”
Despite sitting down, Anthony’s knees felt weak. Gravity felt different, less stable. He breathed heavily into Chris’s soft fingers, tempted to stick his tongue out and lick them.
Chris said, “The question is, do you trust me?”
Anthony nodded, still watching Chris’s blue eyes.
“Trust me enough to let me take your virginity?”
He couldn’t believe those words had just been spoken to him, but if Chris’s offer ended up working, it would be magical.
