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“Expecting someone?” Corv asks. I wrack my brain trying to think but it’s pretty fucking hard when I have his cock pressed against my entrance.
“I-I don’t know.” He nods and leaps off me. I pout as I watch him pull on his boxers, grabs his shirt off the floor and flings it at me. I quickly pull it over my head and draw the covers over my legs, he runs his gaze over me once more to make sure I’m covered before he opens the door.
Oh shit.
Corvin’s shoulders bunch and I tense in my bed. “The fuck are you doing here?” Corvin snaps. I’m so not getting laid now.
Corvin
My grip on the door tightens at the sight of Ash standing there wearing his Sunday best. He runs his gaze over me and his face scrunched in disgust before he looks inside and spots Alexa. I shift and hide her from his view, which brings us almost chest to chest with a sliver of space between our bodies. He takes a step back shaking his head with a smile. I still, waiting for him to attack or say something dumb—he does neither of those. Instead he stands tall and holds my gaze as he speaks.
“I should have known.”
“Known what?” I grit out.
He smiles sadly and that throws me. “When she asked me to breakfast it was only a ploy to get at you.” I keep the hurt off my face. He shoves his hands in his pockets and shrugs his shoulders. “I didn’t realize you two were still a thing. That’s my bad, bro, and I assure youthiswon’t happen again.” He doesn’t wait for a reply as he turns and walks away. It takes me a couple seconds to gather myself and push down the hurt inside me.
She told me this was just sex. My dumb ass thought the fact she came to me and not someone else meant she was finally coming around to admitting that she fucking has feelings for me as well, but obviously I was fucking wrong! I close the door and turn around, but I can’t look at her. I head straight to my bag, grab out a shirt and my pants, then dress as quickly as I can so I can get the fuck out of here. I’m zipping my duffle up when her hand lands on my wrist. I jump back and glare down at her.
“Don’t touch me,” I grit out. Hurt flashes in her blue eyes before she quickly masks it. Standing here and looking down at her inmyshirt, her hair a mess from us fucking all night and she had hickeys lining either side of her neck, my way of showing every other fucker that she is mine. What a fucking fool I am. She was never mine and I was a fucking idiot for allowing myself to think otherwise.
“Would you just let me explain?” she begs. I shake my head, unable to stand here and hear her bullshit excuses.
“It was just sex, right?” She flinches. I sound like an asshole, but right now I don’t give a shit. I reach into the side pocket of my duffle and pull out the ticket I got her for next Friday’s game and toss it on the bed. She frowns at the sight of it before looking back at me. “My dumbass thought after spending the night with me you would change your mind about us. I got you the ticket so you could come to the game as my girlfriend.” I laugh but there is no humor, it's just pain. Her face is a picture of shock and that just pisses me off. “I never should have come here. I was a fucking idiot. You told me this was all a game to you and still I fucking hoped you would change your mind and see that I’m not the bad guy here. I’m fucking sorry about Cody dying, Alexa. I never wanted that shit to happen and I hate myself for any part I played in it. The thing is, what I want with you I never wanted with your sister.” Her eyes widen, I see moisture beginning to build in her eyes.
She shakes her head. “It’s not that simple, you can’t just expect me to forget everything!” she yells.
“I don’t expect you to forget anything. All I wanted was for you to give me a chance to show you I’m not the monster you think I am.” Tears slowly leak from her eyes and my heart aches at the sight. I need to get the fuck out of here. “If you show up to the game wearing this.” I reach inside my bag and pull out my spare jersey and toss it on the bed. “I get what I want and believe me, Alexa, I fucking want you. If you don’t show, I get it. I’ll never bother you again and leave you alone to live your life.” I place a kiss on her forehead and force my feet to move, walking away from her like this is one of the hardest fucking things I’ve ever had to do in my life. I open the door ready to step out, but pause when she speaks.
“She was my sister, Corvin. What you are saying to me is what she wanted from you! Why am I different? Why couldn’t you just have given her this?” The anguish in her voice keeps me from turning back to face her. I keep my voice steady as I answer.
“Because I didn’t love her the way she wanted me to. I cared about her a lot and wanted the best for her but now, I know I never really loved her.”
“How could you know that?” I turn to peer over my shoulder at her, tears leaking from her eyes like a broken faucet.
“Because I’m in love with you.” Her jaw slackens as her eyes widen in surprise, hearing those words come from my mouth. “I love you that much I’d allow you to continue to ruin my cars, trash my house, and fuck with me because I would either get messages from you to gloat or at the very least see you. I love you, Alexa, and because of that reason, I’m going to walk away now and leave everything up to you. You can either continue to live your life alone, knowing you fucking broke me and that you got your much-needed revenge. Or, you can come to that game and admit… you love me too.”
* * *
Five days
I check my phone for the hundredth time, hoping she would have called or texted by now but of course, she is too fucking stubborn. I thought about going radio silent and leaving her to work things out in her own head. Coming home Sunday to an empty house sucked. I’ve never wanted a girl with me all hours of the fucking day, but Alexa, I want her with me everywhere I go. I know if I get drafted that is going to be fucking hard because she still has school and I’d have to travel, but honestly, I’d do anything to make it work with her. This may have all been a game to her and yeah, she played me like a fucking fool, but she won the grand prize. She owns my heart and I don’t want it back. Which is why when I didn’t hear from her all day Sunday or Monday morning, I decided to message her at eleven-forty-two every day. I scroll through my messages and re-read the ones I sent her. I told her every day this week things I noticed about her that no one else would have, unless they were watching her constantly, like me. I even set the photo I took of her and me in bed on Saturday morning as my screensaver.
You scrunch your nose and narrow your eyes when you concentrate.
You like it when I kiss you just below your ear, it sends shivers down your spine and turns you on.
Watching you smile as you daydream has become one of my favorite sights to see.
Seeing you across campus today with your friends and watching you laugh so freely made me happy. You deserve your happiness, jail bait, even if it isn’t with me.
I stare down at the last message I sent her today and a part of me wishes I never sent it but I also know, I had to shoot my last shot.
Game Day, baby. I wish I knew if you were coming or not. Having you there would mean the fucking world to me, but I also get it if you don’t show. If I don’t see you at the game tonight, this will be the last message you will ever get from me. I’ll keep my word and not bother you. If this is the last time I get to talk to you, then I need you to know something. Cody loved you, Alexa, and she only wanted what was best for you. I want what is best for you. I love you, jail bait and fuck, I hope I get to see you tonight.
I’m man enough to admit that I am fucking miserable without her. I’ve never depended on someone to bring me joy or the need for happiness. I was perfectly content with having my boys by my side and partying it up. Fuck, I was fine with fucking a different chick each night until Cody came along. She and I weren’t ideal and I know that now. We fought too much and honestly, in the end, I think we knew we had grown apart. She wanted a ring and a white picket fence, I just wanted to live my life and have fun until I was drafted.
I was stupid and selfish. I know that now because the roles are reversed and I’m the one wanting something with Alexa. She and I are fucking toxic, I know that and so does she but it’s only because she can’t let go of the past and stop blaming me! I know if she does, she won’t feel so much guilt for loving me. Five days without her feels like a lifetime. I miss her sassy attitude and her snarky replies. I miss the smell of her hair and even the way she rolls her eyes when I call her jail bait. Every night this week, I’ve jerked off to the memory of her telling me that her pussy is mine. I fucking pray that she comes tonight, because if she doesn’t, I doubt my heart will ever recover from losing someone like her. Alexa isn’t like every other girl, she is different and so unapologetically her. She has me eating out of the palm of her hand and I’m not even mad about it.
