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Her blush deepened. “Don’t say things like that.”
“Like what?”
“You know…”
“I don’t know. Please enlighten me, Lia.”
She huffed, blowing the strands that had fallen across her face. “You’re insufferable.”
“True. But according to you, I’m also ‘so fucking big I could rip you in two.’”
She gaped at me, completely mortified. “I did not say that.”
“Oh yes, you did. You said a multitude of things while you were drunk on sex.”
She groaned, leaning her forehead against my chest.
I couldn’t help the laughter that bubbled up inside of me. Within the past few hours, I had laughed and smiled more than I had in an entire year. She brought out this different side of me. A side that I had long thought was dead.
I kissed the top of her head, drawing her even closer to me. She felt at peace. Being next to her, the chaos ceased for a few minutes. I wasn’t followed by the dark cloud that had loomed over me for years.
We fell into a comfortable silence holding each other. There was no awkwardness or this need to fill the silence. It was just her and I who existed now.
“Thank you.” Her voice was merely a whisper, but it might as well have been a thunderous boom in the room's quiet.
“For what?”
“For coming to me during the storm. You didn’t have to do it, but you did it anyway.”
“You don’t have to thank me for being there for you, Amelia. It’s not a task for me.”
“I know, but I just want you to know how grateful I am that you made the time.” The sincerity in her voice made me wonder if she ever had people show up for her. Amelia was a giver and rarely asked for anything, if at all. She was the kind of person who stuck her neck out for other people, even the ones who didn’t deserve it.
I tipped her chin upward and captured her lips in mine. Usually, our kisses were hot and demanding, but this one carried more tenderness and sweetness. This wasn’t about branding one another. This was simply a comfort—a message saying I’m here for you.
When we pulled away, her eyes were warm with an emotion that was too foreign for me to comprehend fully. So instead of trying to delve too deep into it, I pushed it away.
“So, what happens now?” She bit down on her lips nervously.
“What do you mean?”
“This whole thing between us. Where do we go from here?”
I cupped the side of her face feeling her smoother skin beneath my rough palm. Amelia was my sweetest temptation and deepest desire personified. Now that I had tasted her and felt how she felt around me, gripping my length as she owned it, I could not let her go.
“I want you, Amelia. I know I shouldn’t, but I do.” She leaned into my touch with the sweetest smile.
“But…,” I continued, “I can’t give you the fairytale kind of love your heart desires. I’m not built that way. I don’t believe in love or happily ever afters. My heart is incapable of it. And I don’t want to put you into anything where you feel you must give up parts of yourself to be with me.”
She pressed her hand on my chest.
“I know you may think I’m this fairy-type girl with her head in the clouds, constantly dreaming about her Prince Charming. I don’t want love right now. I’m unsure if I will ever want it again after Jacob. But one thing I do know that I want is you. Whether that is in a relationship or just casually, I don’t know. But all I do know is that I want to do this again and again and again.”
Her smile was contagious. I knew better than to believe her, but my selfish tendencies didn’t want to question it because I wanted this to happen again and again. So I let it pass.
We would deal with whatever disaster was ahead of us when the time came.
“In that case.” I rolled us over, so I lay on my back, and she was straddling me. Her perky breasts filled my vision, and her nipples were hard already. “Ride me, sweetheart, so that I can say ‘good morning’ correctly.”
