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“Yeah?”
“Do you mean it?” she asked. “Is…is this the real deal?”
“I mean every single fucking word,” I assured her.
Those brilliant blue eyes of hers regarded me carefully before finally saying, “My mom’s not due home for a while-”
“Yeah, no,” I said, lifting her off my lap, then dumping her on the couch. “We’re not doing that, Edie. You’re not ready for that.” I shook my head, my dick screaming at me for being a fool. “It’s too soon.”
Edie jumped up off the couch. “I’m eighteen, Lars,” she reminded me. “It’s not soon enough.”
I looked at her incredulously. “Jesus Christ, woman,” I swore. “You barely had your first kiss last week, or have you forgotten that?”
“If you meant what you said, if this is forever, then why wait?” she challenged.
I wanted to tell her that it wasn’t right because of Talon, but I’d just told her that I didn’t see her as Talon’s little sister anymore, so I couldn’t see me winning any points by bringing him up right now. Plus, I felt like a hypocrite every time that I used Talon as an excuse. I was quick to forget our friendship when I had my hands on Edie, but when shit got complicated, I was using him as a shield.
Christ, this girl had me fucked-up.
“Edie-”
“That’s the only way that I’ll believe that this is forever, Lars,” she said, and whoever thought that Edie Draven wasn’t a master at chess was fucking wrong.
Chapter 18
The decisions that we can’t change.
Lars~
“You can’t be serious,” I said, knowing damn well that she was.
“I’m ready, and I want it to be you,” she stated matter-of-factly. “If you don’t want to, then I can only assume it’s because you’re not ready to cross a line that you can’t uncross. Guilt will have you stuck with me, even if you don’t want to be.”
I had her arm in my hand before she knew what I was about. “Let’s get something very straight here, Edie,” I hissed down at her. “I’ve never wanted a girl the way that I want you. I’m going toalwayswant you because of whatever the fuck it is that you do to me.”
“Prove it,” she dared. “Show me just how badly you want me, and then maybe I’ll believe you, Lars.”
Against my better judgment, against everything that was right, I could not have this girl doubting what I felt for her. We were both betraying her brother, and she needed to know that it wasn’t because I was looking for a quick fuck. Edie needed to know that, while questionable with the way that we were handling things, what we had was worth it.
I stared into those captivating blue eyes of hers as I said, “I don’t care how far into this we are, if you need me to stop, then say so, Edie.” She opened her mouth to protest. “I mean it. I will not be upset, mad, or even disappointed. As much as I want you, what you feel is way more important than what I feel, and it always will be.”
Certain that she was going to lecture me again, I was surprised when Edie threw her arms around me, and I barely had enough time to catch her before she had her entire body wrapped around mine. She felt so goddamn perfect in my arms that I let her kiss me, the fact that she felt comfortable enough to do so, flooding my chest with emotions that I’d never felt for in another girl in all my life. Sure, I’d had crushes when I’d been younger, but Edie was more than a crush. Somehow, she’d gotten under my skin, and I’d have to destroy myself to ever get her out.
Because we’d been friends for so long, and because I’d been in this house a million times over the years, I knew exactly where Edie’s bedroom was. So, with her lips still on mine, I walked us towards the back of her house, praying that Mrs. Draven didn’t come home early, then ordered Talon to kill me.
As soon as we entered her bedroom, I didn’t stop until my knees hit the edge of the bed. Now, while I wanted nothing more than to lay her down, and then touch every inch of her body, I had no idea how comfortable she was with nudity and…well, and everything else. I wanted this to be perfect for her, so if I had to stuff her under the covers, then kiss her body in the dark, then that’s what I would do. I’d take Edie any way that I could get her.
Breaking off the kiss, I asked, “Tell me what you want, Edie.”
“I want more of what we did at school,” she answered a bit breathlessly.
I couldn’t help but smirk. “Oh, I plan on giving you as many orgasms as you can handle,” I promised. “I just need to know how you want them, baby. Do you want to get under the covers? Are you okay with being naked in front of me? Do you want the lights on or off? Do you-”
“Okay, I get it,” she chuckled lightly.
I grinned at the pretty girl. “So, what do you want, Edie?”
“I want you to put me down,” she said primly, and there were lots of times when you could see her brother in her attitude.
