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I sat by myself on the patio outside the shop, licking lemon sherbet and watching an old couple. They were married, I assumed, but I could tell they were best friends too, like we were. They were sharing a spoon over a cup of chocolate ice cream.
Then, the sweet old woman got a drop on her chin. The man smiled and wiped it off with a napkin before pecking her cheek.
And all I could think at that moment was…
I want that life. That love.
And I knew with who.
You’re the only woman I’ll carry a napkin for.
The only one who can share my spoon.
The only one who I share my heart with.
So I made myself wait a year. To get stronger. To stay sober. To come back for you.
But then those guys were there tonight.
I didn’t know they’d be, I swear. I’d never do that to you. But there you were too, and I thought I’d be strong enough to take it.
I’m not.
We were all in that room, and I did the one thing I’ve perfected. I acted like I was the cock of the walk.
That’s the only way I can see them, and see your face, and not want to kill them or a bottle of Absolut.
I’m a fucking shitstorm. I know.
Angie being there didn’t help. She’s been warm enough to remind me that I’m human but cold enough not to see I’m in pain.
So I came over to talk to Mama G.
You know I love her like my own. I’m scared that she has cancer. I know it’s scaring you too. And I thought she’d help me talk to you.
(Ha! She’s pissed at me too. I love her.)
I need people to give me the lines, Cade. To tell me what to say to you because I can’t find my own.
I just feel so much now that I can’t handle it.
It makes me want to drink. I fucking love it. Drinking numbs those feelings while the pills take away my memories, and I’m free.
Without them?
I’m sitting here wanting to rip my hair out, make love to you, or kill those assholes.
What the fuck do I do, Cade?
So I had the DJ play our song.
I thought you’d hear my heart.
The one I’ve been hiding for ten years.
Do you know how many times I’ve played that song?
Every time I do, I see you on top of me, with me inside you. God, your tits are my undoing.
