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“Do you really want me to answer that?”
I groaned. “Fuck. Does everyone hate me now?”
Ruby’s eyebrow lifted again. “Why would we hate you?”
“Dunno. Seemed to be Kai’s reaction, so it’s not a massive leap to assume you all feel the same.”
“Kai doesn’t hate you.”
I swallowed hard around the sudden lump in my throat. “Well, it sure feels that way right now.”
She repeated her question from earlier. “Why’d you kiss him?”
I was about to tell her it was all a part of the act. That I’d taken it a step too far. But then she raised that fucking eyebrow a notch higher, and I broke. “Honestly? I’m not sure. His mouth was just right there. He was singing that damn song about his broken heart and…I don’t know. It just felt…right.”
Ruby surveyed me for a minute, her nails tapping on her mug. Then her tone snapped into the one she saved for the ward.
I was in trouble now.
“Okay, tough love time. You’ve fucked up really badly, but it’s okay. You didn’t know, so none of us are actually mad at you.”
“What are you talking about?”
“How do you feel about my brother?”
“He’s my best friend.” That was easy to answer.
“And how do you think he feels about you?”
“I’m his best friend.” My voice trailed off. “At least…that’s what I thought.”
Ruby sighed, rubbing her forehead like she was getting a headache. “Okay, it’s not my place to say more. But what Iwillsay is to think about how you feel when you’re around him. How you feel when he’s not there.”
“I don’t need to think about that. It’s only been two weeks, and I feel like I’m drowning.”
Ruby looked at me pointedly, making me wish this was a standard phone call. I could live without all the judgmental looks. “Do you think that’s how all best friends feel about each other?”
I scratched my head. “Well, no. But it’s different with us.”
“Exactly! It’sdifferent.”
I stared at her, at a total loss of what she was getting at.
“Look, I need to get some sleep. But think about it, Si. Think about why it felt so right to kiss him. About how you can’t cope without him here.” She sighed. “I love you, Si. I do. But I can’t keep watching you hurt him. Figure out how you really feel about him and what you want.”
My jaw dropped open, unable to keep up with what she was saying.
“And do it fast before it’s too late. Because, trust me, you’ll be the one kicking yourself.”
The screen turned black as Ruby hung up. My stunned face was reflected back at me. I looked like someone had just turned my entire world on its head.
Apt, given that was what had happened.
The second month
Agreatthingaboutbeing a member of a world-famous rock band was that there were countless videos of you. Hours of your life were immortalised on the screen to revisit whenever you liked.
But this was also a fucking horrific thing.
