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I forced myself to step away from Silas’s door. “Not your fault. This is all on me.”
Gesturing for Tristan to follow me, I led him into the next bedroom.
“I’m sorry,” Tristan whispered when I shut us in the room.
My head snapped to him as he sank down on the end of the bed. “Sorry? What on earth have you got to be sorry for? If anything, I should apologise for dragging you here tonight and then barely saying a word.”
He shook his head sadly. “No. I’m sorry for suggesting this whole plan in the first place. I was wrong, Kai. I think we both were.”
I lowered myself onto the bed next to him. “What are you saying?”
Tristan’s mouth twisted as he thought hard. “When I first met Silas, I figured he was just jealous of me replacing him as the most important man in your life. But I’ve been watching you both all night. I think he’s jealous, but not because of that. He has feelings for you, Kai. Anyone with eyes could see that. Even if he hasn’t said it out loud—”
“He has,” I mumbled.
Tristan’s breath caught. “Wait—what? Silas told you he has feelings for you? When?”
“A few days ago.” I dropped my face into my hands, muffling my speech. “That’s what we argued about.”
“I’m so confused. If he told you he had feelings for you, why aren’t you together?”
I didn’t lift my head, waiting for the penny to drop.
Tristan didn’t make me wait long before he groaned. “Oh fuck, Kai. Please don’t tell me you didn’t take it seriously. What did I tell you about that?”
“That you’d throat-punch me if it was you.”
“And did he?”
“No. He did tell me to go fuck myself and not speak to him until I pulled my head out of my arse.”
Tristan lay a comforting hand on the back of my neck. “Does that sound like a man who doesn’t know what he wants?”
“No,” I answered him honestly. “I’m an idiot. He gave me everything I ever wanted, and I threw it back in his face.”
Tristan was quiet for a long time before he spoke again. “It’s going to be okay. Once you’ve explained to Silas, he’ll give you a chance.”
I gave him a wan smile, my heart aching. “Fuck, I hope so.”
I’d lose everything if he didn’t.
Ididn’tsleep.Ijust lay there, revisiting every time I’d fucked up with Silas. From not telling him how I felt years ago to pushing him away over the past few months.
If he agreed to give us a go, I would spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to him.
I had insisted on Tristan taking the bed. I’d taken the sofa opposite. It was pushed up against the wall. On the other side was Silas. We were separated by just a few inches of plasterboard, but with what I’d done, it might as well have been an entire fucking ocean.
How could I have been so stupid?
A low cry from the other side of the wall had me bolting upright.
I grabbed my phone on reflex, expecting to see Silas calling me.
But there was nothing.
I pressed my ear to the wall, holding my breath so I could hear.
“No, no, no. Please don’t. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.”
