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“Fuck you two. We’re just figuring it out.”
Sarah gently took my arm. “She’s carrying your baby, Damian. Yeah?”
I nodded.
“She’s got every hormone under the sun raging through her body. She just wants to know you’re in it for the long haul, that you’re in this with her. It’s an overwhelming time, and the thought of doing it alone is scary.”
I grunted, “I told her I’m in it with her.”
Sarah gave me a look. “Which words did you use? The important ones?”
“No.” I gritted out.
“Well, you’d better use them soon, you big dummy.” She patted my arm. “I’m going to have some of this delicious tiramisu I made.”
Fuck!
I glared at Carter. He’s the one who bated me into this half conversation in the first place. Addison shouldn’t have heard any of what I just said. The truth was, I did love Addison. Why I hadn’t told her, I wasn’t completely sure. Something in me was fearful. I didn’t want to get my heart crushed once more.
I calledMike to come pick me up, and we tracked down the car. It looked like she was headed to her apartment.
Fucking hell, of course she would try to go back to her place, even though all her stuff was at mine. What was she doing?
I dialed Addison, and she finally picked up. She was hysterically crying. “What, you fucking asshole?”
“Addy, my love. You weren't meant to hear that.”
“Oh, I wasn’t meant to hear that you don’t love me? That you don’t know if you want to marry me? What is wrong with you? I’m going to be the mother of your child. You said you wanted to do this with me.”
“And I do.”
She sobbed hysterically through the speakerphone.
“Addy, sweetheart, pull the car over please. I don’t want you driving in this state.”
“You did this!” She screamed through the phone. “You think you can just impregnate me, and make me live in your house, and do whatever you say. You think you can put me out of business and then give me a fake floral building to shut me up? I know you demolished the Horizon View building last week. Or were you going to tell me? I can’t believe you, Damian. I’m not supposed to do this alone. We were supposed to be a team. You ruin everything, you know that? You’re a selfish asshole.” She sobbed through the other end of the line.
“Addison, take a deep breath, you’ve got pregnancy hormones, you’re not thinking clearly.”
“Really?” She snapped. “Fuck you, Damian.” And she hung up the phone.
Shit. I didn’t want her to get in a wreck, or worse. She’d been hitting highs and lows over the last few weeks as her hormones fluctuated.
I did love Addison, but I wasn’t going to come right out and say it to Carter. And I certainly couldn’t tell her now, otherwise she’d just think I was saying it to pacify her. I groaned and rubbed my temples.
What a fucking mess.
30
ADDISON
I blinked my eyes,trying to see through my tears as I drove. What was I even doing? I had been coming back from the bathroom when I heard Carter ask Damian if he loved me, and I froze in the hallway. He didn’t even have the decency to say that he cared for me, just that I was going to be the mother of his child, that we were figuring it out. As if we were in some sort of co parenting situation.
I couldn’t bear to be the other half of a relationship where I loved him more, where I wanted him more than he wanted me. I’d rather just raise this child alone than exist in the space of, “she’s just my baby mama.” I wanted to tell myself it didn’t matter, that I didn’t care, but I knew that couldn’t be farther from the truth.
I pulledup to my apartment in Damian’s Porsche and marched upstairs and slammed the door. Looking around my apartment felt empty and quiet. Too quiet. Suddenly I realized Potato was at Damians.
Fuck.
