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“Ash, baby. Wake up.”
I’m dreaming. Noah’s speaking to me. It’s got to be a dream.
“Go away, you’re not real,” I whine, closing my eyes again.But I see him. He’s real. He’s sitting in front of me.And all the lights are on.
“Did you do this?” he asks, pointing to the thirty-plus pictures that cover the walls.
“Yeah, I was bored. Wait, why are you here?” I touch his clean- shaved cheek.
“Isn’t it obvious? I choose us.”
I touch him again. I even pinch him. “Ouch,” he cries.
“You can’t fuck with me, Noah James. I can’t do this back and forth thing. I need to know this is real.” I understand it’s been hard on him, but living in hell without him for months has been unbearable. And I won’t make it easy on him.
“I’m not fucking with you. You’re my seedling, turned into a beautiful tree, honey. I choose you, I choose us,” he claims.
“What the fuck? Have you hit your head?” I ask, staring at his eyes. Is he high?
“Nothing, I’ll explain the analogy later, honey. I know I’ve put you through hell. Fuck, I’ve hurt you, but there’s no manual for loving your twin brother.”
He's got me there, and I'm speechless for a few seconds, unsure what to say. But I won't give in without questioning his motives. "After one night, you're giving into what you fought against for so long?" I ask. "For months, you've pushed me away. Fuck, just yesterday, you brought up a divorce?"
"Ash, honey, do you think it was easy to stay away from you? And the divorce? It was a stupid fucking idea. I had to tell myself I was doing right by you and the kids. It was a decision I made every day to end what we had. But, I'm tired of fighting what we are to each other."
His words hit me hard.
"Well," I begin. "I’ve been here all day. It sure took you long enough to make up your mind." Why am I rearing up for a fight?
His smile widens. “I had a couple things I needed to do before I could come up here, to prove to you that I choose us. I can’t say I won’t ever get into my head about our lineage, but I love you, and that will never change.”
“And what was the reason again for taking your sweet ass time coming to me?” I have my arms crossed. I won’t accept anything but the truth.
“I had to move all my shit out of my loft and back into our home. I also put the loft up on the market today, proving to you that I don’t have a plan b or a back-up plan.”
He shows me a picture of our closet, and all his immaculate suits are hung up across from where my clothes hang.
“You’re not leaving me?”
He drops his head to his chin. “I’ll never forgive myself for leaving you. I was so fucked up in the head.”
“Well, if you can’t forgive yourself, then I’ll prove it to you every daythat I forgive you. I want nothing more than to raise our family together.”
His hand strokes my cheek, his spare hand on the back of my neck.
“Fuck, I love you, Ashton James.”
There’s only one way I know to answer.
“Ditto.”
51
Noah
Five years later
DidI almost walk away from the best thing in my life? Fuck yeah, I did. How fucking stupid could one person be?
