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“I guess the game is over,” he says, getting to his feet to help Tanu. “Goodnight, Mallory. And good luck.”
Darcy loves the guinea pig hoodie I bought her (“though it’s a copout, as Goliath will not want to copulate with a 2D piggy”) and even Sabrina is impressed with her new maple leaf skates that I almost missed my plane to buy and nearly couldn’t fit into my luggage.
But her love for me comes and goes. “You’re the best!” she tells me on Wednesday, after I give her a ride to McKenzie’s. But on Thursday, when I find her crying in the living room over something McKenzie posted on social media, it’s “Why do you have to be sonosy? Why can’t youevermind your own business?”
“If they find my corpse in a ditch,” I say to Mom, “tell the police not to look into her. She probably did it, but I don’t want her to spend her life in prison.”
“It’s not just you. She’s mad at the entire world.”
“Was I this intense at fourteen?” It’s such a ridiculous question. I’m still eighteen, but I feel as ancient as the lady fromTitanic. Except when I compare myself with Easton and feel stuck in some pubescent stage.
“I once asked you to stop leaving the peanut butter jar open, and you called me a dictator.”
I groan. “Will Darcy be like this, too?”
“Yup.” She pats my shoulder. “Though she’ll leave the Nutella open.”
All in all, though, I come back from my trip to the puzzling revelation that no life- threatening emergencies occurred, and that without me, my family . . . did just fine. I’m half shocked, half relieved.
Oz and Defne are at the Pasternak, which means that I’m mostly unsupervised. I should use the extra time to catch up on the García Márquez readathon I signed up for on Goodreads, memorize the world capitals, dye my hair vomit green. Anything, really. Instead, I study Nolan’s games.
The fury of our last night in Toronto has settled into cold resentment. Nolan said lots of things about me, some of which were correct— by pure coincidence. Broken clock, twice a day. Still, he had no right. His question game was stupid. I hope to never see him again. Probably won’t.
But I do want to study the aggravating masterpieces that are his games, and my hands itch to pull them up on the chess engine. I revel in his delicious ability to wear down his opponents, deprive them of active play, and then strike like a tiger. I’m developing a more- than- mild obsession, and that’s probably why I’m thinking of him when I match up with a guy named Alex on an app on Sunday night.
ALEX:Hey!
MAL:love the dog in your profile pic, is he a pitbull?
My phone immediately pings with a reply, but for several minutes I’m too distracted with lying back on the couch and analyzing the Sawyer variation for the Berlin Defense to check it.
ALEX:Yup. How have you been?
How have Ibeen? That’s kind of a weird question. I scroll back to his profile pic, thinking that he looks a bit familiar. He’s cute. Dark hair. Dark eyes. Not that dark, though. Not as dark as . . .
MAL:have we met before?
ALEX:Are you kidding?
Nope. Not kidding. Thankfully, he reminds me before I have to admit it.
ALEX:We went to school together. I was a year ahead of you. I asked you to junior prom.
Oh.ThatAlex— except, now he has facial hair. I do remember. He’d been so . . . bland. Probably why I haven’t really thought about him since.
MAL:sorry, i didn’t recognize your pic. how’ve you been?
ALEX:Good! I’m at Rutgers. What about you?
MAL:i’m not in school
ALEX:Taking a year off? It suits you, from your profile pic. You were always really hot, but now . . .
The next text is three fire emojis. Given the reason I’m on this app, I should probably find it flattering instead of . . . blah.
Instead, I wonder how Nolan would do this. Be online. Hook up. Poorly, probably. Isn’t he a virgin? Useless in the sack.
But it’s so hard to picture him doing anything poorly. With his dark, attentive eyes; the precise, purposeful way his large hands close around the chess pieces; his voice, always so careful; his beautiful, brilliant strategies. He’d murmur indiscernible words under his breath at the Olympics, when he made a mistake or regretted a move. Sometimes the hairs at the nape of my neck would rise, and it shouldn’t have been pleasant, but I—
