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I didn’t.
I was quick to jump to my own conclusions before it was too late. Before I would travel more just to stay away from her and from my shop because I would never ask her to leave.
The question is burning within me, “If someone came along, and just left you dumbstruck for no reason, would you pursue her?”
Ronnie answers first. “If I think it’s worth it, definitely. You never know but you can always follow a hunch because it won’t let you turn the other way without going for it first.”
“At the end of the day, I’m a risk taker, if she shows up out of the blue and holds my attention for more than two minutes that’s going to be the best fucking adventure.” Luka finishes.
I declare, “You two always know how to lift my spirit!”
“Ahh!” they are both synchronized.
“Glad it worked, mate.” He signals us to turn right, “Everyone deserves closure for better or worse. Don’t put her on the back burner.”
My whole life I’ve been the man running the show, that’s what I set myself to do, my ultimate goal. My want and need to start a family of my own came second. Or third.
It is ten times easier to take the duffel bag that waits for me by the door and leave, knowing I left nothing behind. This time, not only that I leave her behind, but I let her run the show—by giving her the keys to the two biggest accomplishments I earned.
And I can’t put it into words, I just feel so fucking free.
Who the fuck knows what anything is supposed to be? No one. You try, you do your best, you fall, you rise, you lose, you win, and you live. Life isn’t meant to be figured out, it is meant to be experienced.
Hell, what a ride it has been so far.
Why the fuck did I forget that with Lenny?
I open my helmet’s visor, the red light is almost changing, and they both avert their gaze to me. “Are you two, hazards, ready to race?” I challenge their eager faces.
“Hell yes!”
“You can sweep my dust any day, Daddy.”
I laugh as we all accelerate. “You can watch me wheele this beast.”
Time to be wild.
Time to putallthe past behind me and embrace what is in front of me.
Lennon
Twoandahalfweeks after our road trip he told me he was leaving to collaborate with tattoo artists from other cities.
I wanted to hate him for that but I just couldn’t. I knew he was giving us some space apart to figure out what it is that we truly want.
For two months I’ve been working in his shop and living in his house which was hard on its own—having pieces of him around me all the time, but not him.
The knowledge he can watch me whenever he wants is both exhilarating and terrifying. I need to remind myself not to do anything humiliating where there are cameras around.
At least I have Scar who is my all-time favorite companion.
Regardless, being here makes me feel safe. It relieves my stress about Bette too.
Dean Walker: You’re doing great! I’ll be back next week.
His texts made it clear—it was one slip-up.
Now, I need to face him every day, knowing his warmth when he’s pressed against me but also knowing I cannot have him again.
