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“Okay, we gotta go, doll.” Kevin snatches me away from Julius without a single word in response to him and drags me down the street to the parking garage. I feel my brother’s eyes drill into the back of my head, but I don’t turn around, afraid of breaking down completely if I do.
“Come on, we don’t want to be late,” Kevin says.
But we never make it to his car…
A few blocks away, I’m pushed into an old, abandoned building and I stumble, falling to the ground from the hard shove but I place my hands in front of me, not to land on my stomach.
“Kevin,” I cry out. “What the hell? What are you doing?”
The cold dread or familiarity courses through my veins.
I’ve been here before. I’ve been down this road, and I do not want to take this exit to hell…
“Never thought you’d be such an idiot, doll,” he sneers at me as his foot comes on top of me, pinning me to the dirty ground and pressing hard so my hands give away and I do land on my stomach. “I’ve been waiting and waiting for you to come to your senses and get the damn abortion, but no, you want to be amommy. Well, I don’t share the sentiment. I don’t want to be a fucking dad, okay?”
“Okay, okay. I’ll do it all on my own. You don’t have to be in the picture at all.” My voice is still broken from crying over Julius, and now I am trying so hard to stay strong for my daughter. I didn’t see this coming, and that will forever be on me. If something happens to her, it will always be on me. Always.
“You think I’m stupid? You think you can lie to me now and then straddle me with child support for eighteen years? What? You knew I came from money and decided to capitalize?Decided you will finally live a life of luxury because my sperm is inside you? Tough shit,” he spits in my face. “That won’t be happening.”
“No, no, no. I don’t think that. I swear! I never did.” Yes, Kevin’s parents are rich, but that never mattered to me.
“Sure, I believe you.”
“You do?” I hate the stupid hope in my voice when I should know better.
“NO!” And then I’m being lifted from the ground and pushed to the old elevator.
“Kevin. Please stop! What are you doing?” I’m full-on sobbing because this is a nightmare I never saw coming. At least with my parents, I always knew the demons were there, watching over me, but here? With him? I threw my guard down and into the garbage.
I fell for all the pretty words. I was so desperate for love; I didn’t question his…
“I am fixing your mistake, and look at that, I will also play a hero while I am at it.” He sounds unhinged and dangerous, and I know I need to run. To get away from him, and as soon as the elevator door opens, I take off, but he catches me right when I get to the stairs. “And you are making it so much easier for me too.”
I don’t get to ask or think about what is happening when he lands a blow to my head, and I feel myself falling, tumbling, bumping down and down the cold, dirty concrete steps.
“Oh, no, my girlfriend slipped and fell down the stairs,” I hear somewhere through the fog clouding my burning head. “Come fast. My girlfriend just tripped and fell down the stairs. She is pregnant. She needs help!”
I’m burning everywhere. My body is throbbing, but I can’t get up. I am trying to push myself up, but I feel pressure on my back, pinning me to the ground once again. And then there is alittle prick and something cold spreading over my stomach. My stomach that I’m clutching with all the little strength I have.
And then there is nothing…
Darkness…the kind there is no coming back from.
Until I hear,beep, beep, beep.
And a choked, hoarse, “I’m here, Kira, and I will kill that motherfucker,” from my brother…
Chapter forty
Kira
Song: Will Armex – The Shadow
“The day I woke up, my little bump felt awfully empty, and I knew before anyone said anything that I lost my daughter.”
“Kira.” I hear the pity in Vassar’s voice, and I hate it. I don’t want pity. I don’t deserve it.
“Don’t. Don’t feel bad for me. I’m not telling you all this to make you feel sorry or pity me. I am telling you this so you finally understand who I am and what I could never be.”
