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“Presley,” she whispers, tears welling in her eyes. “I have missed those eyes of yours, Pres.”
I try to speak but only manage a cough. My throat is dry and scratchy. She jumps up and grabs water, giving it to me. I take a few tiny sips before handing it back.
“What happened? Something is wrong. I don’t feel right.” It all comes rushing out while I gasp for a breath, feeling the panic setting in.
“Okay, okay. Breathe, Pres. Let me get a nurse.” Instead of leaving, she hits a button on my bed, and a nurse comes in a few moments later.
“Oh, sweetie, you’re awake. It’s so nice to meet you. I have been your nurse for the last week. I’m Amy. The doctor will be in shortly to fill you in. I am just going to take your vitals and check you over. Are you in any pain?”
I shake my head as she gets started. A few minutes later, the doctor comes in. He gives me a gentle smile before speaking. “Glad to have you awake. It’s been a rough week for you. Your body needed the time to heal. I do have some bad news. When you first came in, the baby was in distress, but we were able to get things under control. Shortly after, you went into cardiac arrest. We were able to revive you, but you were down too long.” My heart beats loudly.Thump.“The baby did not make it.”Thump. Thump.
If he says anything else, I don’t hear it. All I can hear is my heart. It feels like it’s beating slower and slower, but yet so loud.Thump.My mind is swarming. I can’t breathe right. My chest is caving in on me.Thump.I faintly hear Raven say something to the doctor, and the room goes quiet.Too quiet. My eyes are unfocused, staring at nothing.Thump.How do I keep breathing?
The door opens and my eyes immediately snap over, focusing again. Axe stands there staring at me. My eyes connect with his. He calls me an angel, but I think he might be the actual angel. Here to save me from my own hell.If that is even possible.Everything is becoming clear again.Thump.
I feel my heart rate pick up again. It’s not pounding so loudly in my ears. Staring into his eyes makes me feel like I can take a full breath again. Could he really be my salvation?
Could he save me from being tormented in silence? I’m not sure I can survive this on my own. I’m not sure I can survive this at all.
He walks forward and the second his hand touches mine, the crack inside of me expands, and I get flooded with every feeling at once.
Guilt.
Devastation.
Anger.
Confusion.
My body failed my baby.
Ifailed my baby.
How do I breathe when my baby doesn’t get to breathe?
Fury. I feel furious.
My body is consumed by uncontrollable sobs. I have no control over them. My entire body shakes as everything seems to burn from the inside out. My skin is growing uncomfortable. It feels foreign to me. Like this isn’t really my body.
Axe climbs on the bed with me and holds me as best he can. The sobs don’t stop. If anything, they only grow stronger with his touch. He shouldn’t be touching my poisonous skin. There are no words to describe the pain and heartache I feel at this moment.
My heart shatters into a million pieces, and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to put it back together.
The tears don’t stop until it’s impossible for me to keep my eyes open any longer. As I close them to let the darkness consume me, I hear him for the first time, even though I know he was talking to me the whole time.
“Shhh, I’ve got you, angel. I’m not going anywhere.”
That should comfort me, but it can’t. Not when my heart is still beating. This isn’t how it was supposed to end.
Chapter Fourteen
Axe (Jackson)
Iholdherasshe slowly falls asleep, whimpering. My heart broke when I walked into this room. The last time I felt so lost and helpless was watching my mom break when she lost her daughter. My sister. We were in this hospital. It really makes me hate hospitals even more now. This entire week has been chaotic. The day she lost the baby, they had to do emergency surgery to remove it.
We don’t know if Presley already knew what it was, but it was a baby girl. We have no idea what her plans are, so we are paying a fuck ton of money for nothing to be done yet, so Presley can decide when she is awake and more coherent.
Every day this week Raven has stayed with her during the day, and I stay the night. During the day, I have been doing everything in my power to find this fucker. We found out a few days afterwards that the cops played it off as a home invasion gone wrong. But they didn’t do any kind of investigation, which means someone inside did it or someone with a lot of influence and money did it and was able to get the cops to brush it under the rug.
