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“I guess you’re the wife?”
“I go by ‘Jules,’ but that is my government title, yes.”
A corner of her mouth kicks up, and it startles me how much that expression, just for a second, makes me think of Cam. He does that same thing, and it’s weird, seeing his expression on another face. They’re not blood related, so I can’t chalk it up to a fluke of DNA.
“Cute,” Libby replies, but I don’t know if she’s referring to my joke or to me in general. “Well. Good luck.”
With that, she pushes past us and into the house, closing the door behind her.
In the silence, I can hear the wind through the trees, the faint twitter of birdcalls, and, somewhere far in the distance, the low hoot of a train whistle.
“Good to be home,” Cam mutters to himself, leaning down to pick up his bag. “Can’t imagine why I left.”
“I’m sorry,” I say, laying a hand on his arm. “Have you two always been… like that?”
“Not always,” he says as he hefts the bag onto his shoulder. “When we were little, it wasn’t so bad. But then…” He trails off, a grimace on his face. “Anyway, Libby is more bark than bite, though the bark is more annoying than I’d remembered.”
I’m intrigued by that “but then,” sensing there’s a story there, but knowing now isn’t the time to push it. Not when Cam is pushing open the front door, and Ashby House is finally opening up to me.
“Last chance,” Cam says, pausing in the doorway. “Only Libby has seen us. We could get back in the car and be in Colorado by, oh… Thursday? Wednesday if we gunned it.”
He’s smiling, his elbow brushing mine, but I can see in his eyes that if I said, “Sure, let’s go,” there would be a streak ofgray smoke on this porch in the shape of Cam and our Denali would be halfway down the mountain in two seconds.
I shake my head, once again linking my arm with his.
“I grew up in Florida,” I remind him. “I eat overly tanned bitches who drive Audis for breakfast.”
His gaze warms, and he leans in, kissing my forehead. “I love you,” he murmurs against my skin, and I close my eyes briefly, curling my fingers into the fabric of his T-shirt, making myself stay here in this moment, with him, because I know that once we’re inside that house, things will change. We’ve been happy, so happy, for the last ten years, but we were also playing parts.
Cam, the regular guy who taught high school English, and rented a nice but small house, and didn’t have a bank account with nearly a hundred million dollars in his name and a mansion on the other side of the country.
Jules, the sweet wife who churned butter for tourists and did community theater and didn’t care about said money or said mansion.
I let myself mourn that version of us for just a second, and then I turn to the open door and step inside.
CHAPTER SIXCamden
I forgot about the portrait.
The moment I step into Ashby House, I feel almost disoriented, thrown back in time so violently that I half expect to look down and see soccer cleats on my feet, dirt and grass on my knees.
It’s the smell, for one thing. That beeswax polish Ruby liked the cleaners to use, the sick, funereal scent of fresh flowers that have been left in their vases a day or two too long, the faint tang of woodsmoke that never went away, even in the summers, like every fire ever lit in every fireplace soaked into the pores of the place.
The Tiffany lamp on the table just inside the front door, a replacement for the one I broke when I was fourteen, casting little squares of colored light onto the black marble top of the table it sits on. The carpet runner on the stairs, held in place by brass rods, the navy-and-maroon pattern worn away inthe middle of each step by more than a century of feet going up and down.
The way the front hallway widens, opening up into empty space, the better to display the massive windows that look out onto the back lawn before it drops steeply down into rocks and trees. I kicked a soccer ball off the edge of that lawn once, wanting to watch it roll down the mountain, but it was immediately swallowed by the trees, tangled in branches before it got more than three feet down.
All of that comes rushing at me, thick and dizzying, and I wonder if this is what having a heart attack feels like. Chest tight, mind reeling, air suddenly hard to come by.
And then I lift my eyes and see Ruby staring down at me.
The portrait hangs at the top of the stairs, massive in its gilt frame. It was painted by Ruby’s third husband, Andrew. She was married to him the longest, ten years, and maybe she loved him the most because Andrew was the middle name she gave me. He painted her picture right after they met, around 1969, so she wasn’t even thirty at the time.
Younger than I am now.
Her dark hair is loose around her shoulders, no bouffant for Ruby McTavish, even in the sixties, and she’s wearing an emerald-green evening gown as she perches on the arm of some antique chair, her legs crossed demurely at the ankles, her hands clasped in her lap. Her smile is faint, but genuine, I think. I remember that expression. And it’s a good portrait, objectively. True to life, and the contrast of the opulent dress and décor with her casual pose works well.
I focus on the other details of the painting because I don’t want to look into those eyes.
