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“Scar, we had some fun last night.Wasn’t that enough?”
“Was it enough for you?”She knew it wasn’t.
“Well, I have news,” I started, thinking about the job.
“Lay it on me, I’m a big girl.”She winked and laid her head back.
I winced.She was, though.She was so much more than that.Back then she was a stranger, someone one of my soldiers had told me about.Now, she was real.She was mine.She was going to be my wife someday.The mother of my child.Scarlet got up, holding onto me instead of crutches and took my face in her hands now.
“I got the job,” I said and kissed her with everything I had in me.
She returned my kisses and became putty in my hands.“I’m so proud of you.Now, take me, Colt,” she begged.
“Oh, baby, you don’t ever have to beg.”
“Then make love to me,” she said.
I took her mouth in response and picked her up, carrying her off to the bedroom so we could make love again.
Chapter Twenty
Scarlet
Maternity clothes?“What are you trying to do to me, Brooke?”
“I’m just saying,” she said, throwing her hands up in defeat.
Why had I never thought of this myself?My body was going to change.I was going to have to wear maternity clothes.I was going to have tobuymaternity clothes.My skinny jeans—not going to fit.My lingerie—never going to happen.My thongs—never going to fit right.It was all going to change.My breasts were never going to look the same.My feet were going to be swollen.Oh my goodness, I’d watchedWhat to Expect When You’re Expecting, so why was this so difficult for me?I guess because I forgot.I didn’t think of any of that.Only thought of having a family.
“I wanted to be a mother so bad, Brooke, I never for one second thought of any of that,” I confessed, starting to hyperventilate.
“Breathe,” she urged, “that’s because you’re a better person than me.I’ve thought about it a lot.”Then she added, “But, no, that’s not why Max and I haven’t had a baby.I’ve had trouble conceiving, that’s all.”
“I didn’t know you’d tried more than once.”
“Oh, yeah, plenty of times.Max and I just don’t like to talk about it.”
“But I’m your best friend.”
“Scar, it’s embarrassing.I’m a woman.I should be able to have a baby.Look at you, you weren’t even trying and you conceived.”
“I also had a miscarriage.”
She winced.“I didn’t mean to.I’m sorry.”
“Me, too.”
“Do you still think about it?”
“Every single day.I will never forget the baby that Colt and I lost.We could’ve had twins.We could’ve had two children.I mean, how am I ever supposed to forget that?But I know that if I dwell on it for too long I’ll miss everything now.I’ll miss out on this pregnancy.I’ll miss all the beautiful memories we’re making, Colt and I.”
“Max and I, we just don’t want to keep getting disappointed.”
I rested my hand on top of hers and apologized to my friend, who I could tell wanted a child, too.“It’s the only thing I can’t give him.”
“You will.Eventually.”
“He doesn’t want to have an oxygen tank when our child’s graduating from high school.”
