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Five Years Later
"I'm nervous," Kelsey whispers, clinging to my hand like it's a lifeline as we cross the parking lot toward the medical complex. The early morning sun shines overhead, creating a halo around her blonde head.
"Hey." I immediately stop walking and tug her into my arms. "No matter what, everything will be okay,elskan mín."
I refuse to accept anything less. For the last five years, taking care of her has been my number one priority. Whether she's fallen out of remission like she fears or is pregnant again, like we hope, that will never change. My world revolves around her and our daughter. She's the sun and moon in my sky. I'll be here to support her through whatever news we get today.
She doesn't carry anything alone, not any longer.
"You're right," she whispers. "But I'm scared anyway."
I cup the back of her head, pressing my lips to her forehead. "It fucking kills me that I can't take away the fear for you. I can't ever take away what you've been through or what you may still yet face. But I can do this," I murmur. " I can hold you through it. I can be by your side every step of the way. I can love every piece of you every single day. You don't carry it alone anymore, princess. I'm right here. And together, we can face anything. You taught me that."
"You're going to make me cry," she whispers, her voice shaking.
"I didn't say it to make you cry." I tip her head back, meeting her watery gaze. "I said it to remind you that you're the strongest person I've ever met. Regardless of what news we get in that office today, you'll still be the strongest person I've ever met. Nothing we hear inside is going to change anything about you, the way I feel about you, or the fucking amazing future still ahead of us."
"You promise?"
"I swear to you," I vow. Not even the might of heaven and hell could drag this woman from my arms. I won't allow it. She's mine in every way. my soul tied to her in ways nothing and no one will ever be able to undo. I'll fight for her until I have no breath left to fight. That's the promise I made the day she told me she was sick. It's one I'll keep no matter what comes. No one gets to take her from me. We spent too long apart already.
She inhales a breath and nods, drawing her courage around her. She's always been the bravest little thing I've ever met. Christ, she forged a whole team of madmen into a respectable family with nothing more than a few well-aimed glares and a few well-timed threats. And she did it while fighting a battle none ofus understood or even knew about. She isn't just strong. She's a fucking warrior.
"I'm ready," she whispers.
I press another kiss to her forehead and then her lips, lingering there for a moment. "I love you," I remind her before pulling back.
"I love you too, Kris."
I link our fingers, leading her toward the building.
We end up havingto wait half an hour before she's finally called back. Her nurse, Carmen, runs through the usual spiel before taking us to a room to wait. Kelsey's too nervous to sit. She paces the tiny exam room, her heels tap, tap, tapping against the floor. I watch her for a moment before deciding I need to intervene. She's only stressing herself out. Whether she's pregnant or falling out of remission, stress isn't going to help either situation.
"Come here," I murmur, holding out my hand to her.
"What? Why?"
"Because I miss the feel of you in my arms, princess."
She smiles, pacing toward me.
I pull her down onto my lap, tucking her head beneath my chin.
"You know this is not what these rooms were made for," she whispers.
"I don't give a fuck. This is what we were made for." I wrap my arms around her, anchoring her to me. Her doctor should be used to our public displays by now. I've attended every appointment at her side for the last five years. And no one tells me when I can touch my wife. We spent far too fucking long keeping our hands off each other. I won't ever do that again.
"You're too good to me," Kelsey sighs.
I press my lips to her temple.
"Do you think…" She trails off. "Never mind."
"Yes."
"You don't even know what I was going to say."
"You were going to ask if I think you could really be pregnant again. Yes, I do." I know she still struggles to accept that her fertility isn't completely destroyed, but we got pregnant once without intervention. If that's what's going on with her this time, I won't be surprised. It may have taken a lot longer than it takes most couples, but that's okay. We have one perfect little miracle at home. I'd wait a lifetime for a second.
