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“Didn’t you?”
Her face scrunched in pain, and she whispered, “What?”
“Are you sure you didn’t plan this? You were the one to assure me we were safe.”
“Yes, after you, too, forgot the condom. How is that solely my responsibility?”
“Because you’re the one carrying it.” Man, I was an ass.
“Do you honestly believe I could do that to you?” Her broken voice nearly destroyed me. But I had more than myself to protect at the moment. I could ruin them.
“You wouldn’t be the first one to try and tame me. Forcing things to be more than they are won’t work out for you.” Then I landed the final blow. “We were having fun, so if you mixed things up and pictured more than it was real, you’re the one to deal with it.”
Her pain should have stopped me. Her cry should have made me run back to her and beg for forgiveness and understanding. For patience. But mainly I was purposefully ruining myself in the process. I knew better than to get attached. I knew better than to believe I could make it work with someone as wonderful as Isabella.
At the end of the day, I was Benjamin Walker. My father’s son.
The music was loud, but I could only blame the scotch for my headache. After driving around and cursing myself for being so rude and fate for being so cruel as to give me a glimpse of happiness, only to ruin everything, I ended up at All In One to lick my wounds.
If I were being honest, I was the one ruining everything. Fate was only the messenger of my demise. I didn’t believe a child could ruin my life; that was never the issue. But I was a firm believer I could ruin any kid that came my way, not before I ruined their mother’s as well.
As much as I tried to convince myself I was doing this to protect Isabella and her child—our child—I needed to acknowledge I was hiding away before sure failure descended upon me.
“Hank,” I yelled, louder than needed, to get the owner’s attention. I pointed down at my glass, silently asking for more.
“Are you sure? I could get you some water or something to eat.”
“I don’t need food. Gimme another,”hiccup,“one.”
“Ben—”
“Another. One.”
He exhaled heavily but complied. I slipped my phone from my pocket. If I was getting miserably wasted, I could use a companion. I rolled through my latest messages, barely able to read the blurry thing.
I tried calling Zach, only to be sent to voicemail.What day is it?It was probably his weekly ice cream date with Gabe. That kid was proof a kid didn’t ruin a person’s life. Haley’s son was adorable, and he was our little mascot. If he ever needed a father, it should be someone like Zach. If anyone had what it took to father any child, it was him—patient, responsible, with a loving family to step in whenever needed.
In other words, the opposite of me.
Another great example was Danny.
Danny. I should get him to come.
I looked for his contact through the slits of my eyes and texted him.
Me:come drrrink witj me at AIO.
I slurred even in texting. What great father material.
Danny:can’t. I’m with Fee. Andrea is AWOL.
Even married to the wife from hell, he was loyal—to a damn fault—and he loved and protected his little Sofia. He didn’t blame Andrea for being pregnant, nor did he storm off when he learned the news. Because he was a decent man.
Me:Booo.
Danny:??
Me:You shuld just dummp her cheeating asss. Lovis s mistake.
