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“Yeah? I don’t think I’ve ever mixed the two.”
“It’s a little intense, but it feels fucking amazing.”
“Well, then, I might just have to take you up on your offer.” I say. I wouldn’t mind feeling amazing for a change.
“You should.” He smiles and takes a sip of his drink. “I think we could have a lot of fun together.”
“Tonight?”
“I meant in general, but yes, tonight.”
“I’ll think about it.” I say, taking a drink from my cup.
“You do that." He says as he moves a strand of hair from my face. “Beautiful. I’ll find you after your set, yeah?”
“Sure.” I say with a smile.
I turn to walk back to my dressing room and see Wes looking my way again. He quickly looks away, his face unreadable again, though he was watching me so that has to mean something.
It shouldn’t make me happy that he is watching me talk to Skylar. I don’t want to hurt him, but it is nice to know that he still cared. I mean he said he would always care about me, so maybe he is just looking out for me and isn’t jealous or hurt at all.
I don’t know which I preferred, him jealous or him just looking out in a friendly way. I guess just having him care meant he wasn’t completely over me yet. That was good. I mean, I eventually want him to move on, but I want it to take a while. I want to know I was something special to him.
I head to my dressing room to hide because I still can’t bear the idea of listening to Wes sing. It hurt just to see him but hearing him sing would be a whole other level of pain, a pain I just can’t stand.
We still have to do a song together though Sue hasn’t mentioned it since that first day. I’m still hoping there is a way for me to get out of it. Surely, they would rather I do a song with Skylar instead right? I wonder if I could swing that. It wouldn’t be another voice but another guitarist. I think, from watchingKey Failures’set that he is the lead guitarist. Maybe just doing afeature with another lead guitarist would be good enough for the label.
Of course, I still don’t know if I trust him. He seemed nice enough, but I know better than to trust first impressions when it comes to men. They could turn into jerks in an instant, for no reason whatsoever, or because I won’t sleep with them.
Sue comes into my dressing room.
“Bathroom?” I ask, setting my drink down on the table. She unlocks the bathroom door for me but doesn’t walk in with me. She has seemed to stop watching me actually pee and taken to trusting me not to throw up.
I pee and wash my hands.
“I saw you talking with Skylar. “She says when I come out of the bathroom. Then she locks the bathroom again.
“Yeah. We might hang out after the show.”
“Yeah? That sounds like fun.”
“Yeah.” I say and sit down on the couch. I throw back the rest of my drink and grab a water bottle off the table. If I do decide to roll with him, I know I need to stay hydrated to avoid having a bad comedown.
“Well, as long as you aren’t wallowing on the bus, I don’t care what you do, or who. But wear a condom, don’t throw up, and be on the bus by bus call. Don’t make me go track you down.” She says. “And don’t do anything that would cause too big of a scene. I should probably have you make him sign an NDA.”
“We are just hanging out. I will be careful.”
“Fine. But if this turns into more, he will have to sign one.”
“Fine.” I shrug it off.
Sue leaves to do whatever it is she does between sets. I hang out in the dressing room, watching the clock. I touch up my makeup and drink more water.
I know it is probably a bad idea to do ecstasy with Skylar. I know that Sue would view that as making a scene, but I kindof like the idea of not feeling sad for a change. I wanted a distraction, right? This seems like a good one.
I’d be careful. I mean the worst that could happen is Skylar makes a move on me. He didn’t seem like the kind of guy to rape me, but even if he did, it wouldn’t be the first, probably wouldn’t be the last. I’m just that pathetic.
I bite my lip to keep from crying at that thought.
