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I roll my eyes. “That’s such a lame excuse.”

“It’s not an excuse! Whatever you think happened,didn’t happen. Is that why you’ve been so weird since I got home?”

“I’m not being weird, I’m taking a break from this.” My voice cracks as I gesture between us.

He drags me closer. “I don’t want a break. Jordan, we’re good together. Look, this is me laying it all out on the line for you, I have never shared my feelings like this with anyone. Know why? Because you’re a safe space for me. Let me be that safe space for you.”

“You are my safe space,” I assure him. He’s the only safe space I’ve ever had.

“Then stop pulling away every time shit begins to feel real—our connection exists whether you want it to or not, we owe it to each other to at leastseeif there’s something here.” He slumps into the chair and rubs the back of his neck. His hand drops to his lap while he waits for me to respond.

He’s not wrong. About any of it. He’s got me pegged, and I’m ashamed of the accuracy. I am closed off. It’s why I can’t figure out what to do with him.

“Who was the woman that answered last night?”

He retrieves his phone from his pocket and dials Barrett, putting it on speakerphone. I notice it’s slightly different. Maybe an upgraded model...

“I see you got your new phone working,” Barrett answers.

Cam points at the phone as if to saysee?!

“What happened last night at the bar?”

Barrett scoffs. “Right?! That shit was nuts. Thanks for helping me pull Colby off that guy. It’s shitty you lost your phone in the process.”

“I think you were right when you said it was stolen, Jordan said some woman answered it last night.”

“Probably those girls sitting behind us.”

“Maybe. Hey, who did I share a room with last night?”

“Me...” Barrett answers. “Oh, shit, does Jordan think you had a girl over? Jordan if you can hear me, I swear Cam only touched my balls once and it was because I asked him to.”

“Charming. Bye.” He ends the call and stares at me. “Sunshine, there are so many things I like about you. You are strong and fearless. You handle the worst challenges with grace. You’re smart and observant. You can read me so well, it’s spooky. You’re funny, playful, wild, and sexy. Not to mention drop-dead gorgeous.” His head lolls to the side, and he shrugs. “You make me fucking crazy. Why would I want anyone else?”

I blink at him. “I’m sorry I didn’t believe you.” I swipe under my eyes, and he smiles.

“You can cry around me, you know.”

“You’re a really good guy, Cam.”

He groans. “But?”

I raise my eyebrows and shake my head. “But nothing. I wish you would let more people see this side of you.”

“I don’t need anyone else to see it. It’s yours.”

But I don’t want it to only be mine. I don’t want to be a secret.

“If I say yes to this, Iwantpeople to see it.”

I vowed that the next man I get involved with will treat me like a queen, and Camden Teller is no exception.

“What do you mean?”

“I’m not going to be some quiet girlfriend on the side that other women think they can step over to get to you. I don’t want to be yours behind closed doors. I’m not a delicate princess—I’m a fucking queen. If you want me, that’s how you’re going to treat me. Leave your ego at the door, I want everyone to know thatyoukneel atmyfeet.” I cross my arms, waiting for his response, and mentally pat myself on the back for demanding my worth.

“Yes, Your Highness.” His grin spreads across his face until he’s beaming at me. “I’m so goddamn proud of you.”

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