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“I love you.”
Jocelyn’s lips curve into a huge smile as she looks up at Ben. She’s desperate for him to be okay and part of me is annoyed that he’s making her worry like this, but I realise that if this hadn’t happened tonight, it would have continued to fester and one thing that I know is going to be key if three of us together is ever going to work is that we need to be honest.
Should I blame Ben for not being honest? No. I can see that it’s been fear of being honest, of asking for something that he wants, something he thinks I’m not willing to give him, that’s led to this.
“What do you need, Ben?”
There’s a long pause. Either he’s confused about what he truly needs, or else he’s unsure how to ask for it, or worse, that he’s afraid to ask for it. Despite me trying not to force my dominant tendencies into this situation right now, I think maybe I need to. But then thankfully, Jocelyn realises what’s going on.
She places her hand on Ben’s cheek and pulls his face around, then stretches up and places her mouth over his. She kisses his lips leisurely, then deepens the kiss, forcing him to open for her. When she pulls back, Ben’s eyes are glazed and some of his tension has left him.
“What do you want us to do?”
“What were you doing when I was at the theatre?”
“We got a taxi home, got very wet just getting into the flat from the taxi,” Joss says, “but I’m guessing you don’t want to repeat that?”
“No,” Ben says, but he smiles down at her and I think there’s a chance that we’re through the worst of this. “What else?”
“We…” She stops and looks down at me, her brow creasing a little before she turns back to Ben. “We made love and then we fell asleep.”
Ben swallows, his eyes darting back and forth between the two of us. “I want to watch you.”
Jocelyn frowns at him. “You don’t want to join us?”
“I want to watch you first. And then I’m going to join you.”
“Okay.” Jocelyn stands up and takes Ben’s hand, pulling him to stand beside her. But he’s slow to move, his gaze remaining on me. Jocelyn looks down at me and offers me her hand, but I look to Ben for permission before taking it and standing beside them.
Jocelyn turns to head for the bedroom then pauses when she’s realises neither of us have moved. She tries to tug my hand, but I’m waiting for Ben.
“It’s cold, guys. Aren’t you going to come and keep me warm? I love it when I’m between the two of you.”
“That’s not… that’s not what’s going to happen, Joss,” I say.
She frowns, then looks at Ben, who shakes his head. “Okay, but…”
Ben nods at me, and I move towards Jocelyn, picking her up and carrying her down the corridor to his room.
“Oh,” she says as we go into Ben’s room. When all three of us are together, we’re always in my bed. Never Ben’s. We don’t spend much time in here. To be honest, my room is usually cleaner and tidier, but, for once, everything in here is organised. Ben shrugs when I raise my eyebrows and I wonder how long he’s had it like this. Things have clearly been changing for him and I could kick myself for not having been paying attention.
Ben pulls the duvet down and I lay her down on the sheet and then lie down beside her. Both of us shiver at the touch of the cold sheets, but they won’t stay that way for long.
Jocelyn’s gaze is moving from Ben to me and back again, and it’s clear she’s confused.
“He wants to see what happened earlier. Is that okay?”
She nods at me, but I notice she glances quickly at Ben and her eyes widen. I smile because she’s working out the change in dynamic.
“Oh,” she says just as I kiss her. We kiss for a while, then, like we did earlier, I settle between her spread thighs and she wraps her legs around me. I shiver when I enter her, knowing that Ben if Ben is going to do what he really wants to, then he’s going to have to make a move soon. Or risk having to wait for me to recover, and I’m sure he’s not willing to do that. He’s already waited a long time to ask for this. I doubt he’ll ever admit just how long he’s wanted this and honestly, that makes me feel sad and not a touch guilty.
And then I feel his hands on me and I spread Joss wider, settling between her thighs and fucking her as slowly as I can as I watch her face. Her gaze darts between mine and Ben’s and while I think she understands now what is about to happen, I don’t think she fully understands what it means. For me, certainly. And it’s clearly a big fucking deal for Ben or this evening wouldn’t have played out the way it has.
I lean forward, putting my weight on my arms and focusing on Jocelyn.
“Jocelyn, I want you to spread Mat’s ass for me,” Ben says and Jocelyn’s throat bulges as she swallows. But she does what she’s told and I lower my head to her neck, finding this harder than I’d expected to. I’m doing this for him. I want to do this for him, I say repeatedly in my head. The lube is cold as he rubs it in, and I can’t help but tense when he pushes a finger inside me. But Joss distracts me by kissing me thoroughly and plays with my nipples as well as tightening her pussy around me.
“Stop,” I say, and Ben freezes behind me. “Not you, Ben. Jocelyn’s going to make me come and this time… This time I want it to be about all three of us. Together.”
