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“Just not to you.”
“Always to me and everyone else, but I won’t listen unless you really mean it.”
His lips were so close. My gaze dropped to them, and he laughed. I wanted to kiss him so damn badly, even as he mocked me for it.
“Back off,” I said again, the words not much more than a hiss through my teeth as he held my face in his bruising grip.
“You don’t mean that. Tell me what you really want.”
I held his gaze, not backing down or trying to say anything else. Even without his hands on my face, I didn’t think I could get any words out.
He’d saved me. He’d fucking saved me. And I’d thought….
I made a strangled sound. Fuck no. I wasn’t going to be the one to cry this time.
Matteo let me go and stared at me. “Is this how it’s going to be between us? You’re going to act cold and superior, and I’m going to have to force you out of it?”
Now I had to speak. “You’re going to do what I say.”
He shook his head. “No, I’m not. That was what I allowed last night. Things are different now.”
“Because I’m supposed to see you as my savior?”
“No, because I took my punishment, and now it’s your turn.”
“There’s nothing to punish me for.”
“Lying to me, pretending you didn’t care. Taking me prisoner. You think those aren’t offenses.”
“Not when you….”
“When I what….”
Anguish threatened to crush me. “How was I supposed to know?”
He growled. “You were supposed to fucking feel it.”
He kissed me then, his lips slamming against mine, his tongue forcing my lips apart. I struggled against his hold, but not as hard as I could have. I could hurt him. I could stop this, but I wasn’t going to. I was way too far gone and all he’d done was kiss me.
He put a knee on either side of my legs, rising above me, forcing my head against the back of the couch to make me look up at him. “You want this.” I didn’t deny it, but I didn’t agree with him either. “How many times have you thought about me since I left?”
“I thought about how I would kill you many times.”
“Tell me you didn’t still want me, no matter what I’d done. Tell me you don’t still want me right now.”
“Are you planning to shoot me again?”
“No, but I’m not planning to be gentle with you either. I’m planning to punish you, make you beg, make you need me as much as I need you.”
I sucked in my breath. He didn’t really mean that. He was playing me. “What the fuck Matteo? You never needed me.”
“I needed you like I need air to breathe.”
God, could he be serious. “You could’ve told me.”
“Right. Like I was going to tell the cold, superior asshole I needed him that badly when he tried to say no every time I wanted to see him.”
“What we were doing could have gotten us both in trouble, and I knew I would end up getting hurt. I was right, wasn’t I?”
