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“Just say the word and it all stops.”
“I will not safeword out.Not to you, or anyone else, so let me go!”
“Somehow I knew you were going to say that, my stubborn little minx” Tony smirked as he landed another brutal slap.
Boiling with rage, I fought to get free, but he was too strong, too capable, too…everything.Dammit, he was going to win.I stopped struggling, hoping Tony would end this embarrassing lesson and leave, but he didn’t.
I slumped across his steely legs, resigned to endure his humiliation, as he continued to light my ass up.The heat sank deep into the tissue as it rolled up my spine and melted down my legs.The burn wasn’t unbearable; in fact, it felt calming, in a bizarre way.And as the sting began to fuse with my bones, my thoughts grew thick like honey.As if by magic, the scattered, broken chaos swirling in my head…stilled.All that remained was a pinpoint of light in the center of my brain, pulsing in time with the echo of slapping flesh upon flesh.
Floating away to a quiet, peaceful place, I couldn’t equate the sensation to any past experience or emotion.I thought it strange that I wasn’t attempting to compartmentalize my response to what Tony was doing to me.Escaping my sorrow was such blessed relief, I simply let go and sailed away.
Having lost all sense of time, when I finally forced my heavy eyelids open, I found myself lying in bed surrounded by Tony’s warm body.He held me close against his soft cotton shirt, and I breathed in his familiar scent as he lazily drew his fingers through my hair.I felt small and boneless.My brain sloughed in a heavy fuzziness, but I could feel the icy hot blaze throbbing on my ass cheeks.And the memory of his spanking swamped me in shame.
Even as I tensed, Tony continued threading his fingers through my mane.Gathering up my courage, I peeked up at him beneath my heavy lashes.He stared down at me as a placid smile curled the corners of his mouth.
“Welcome back, angel.”His voice poured over me, deep and smooth, like brandy.
“What happened?What did you do to me?”My question came out a shy whisper.Still confused by the gossamer sensations swirling inside me, I struggled to clear the fog enveloping my brain.
“You took off on me for a bit.”
“Took off?To where?”A slight slur clung to my words.
“Subspace, angel.Haven’t you ever been there before?”
I shook my head.Tony frowned and pressed a sweet kiss to my forehead.
“How did you like it?”
HowdidI like it?I wasn’t sure.A part of me felt off-kilter…but in a good way.While another part of me felt relaxed, as if I’d taken a soothing vacation.The mud miring my brain made processing my thoughts much slower than normal.And while I was stone cold sober, I felt drunk off my butt.
“I’m not sure.I don’t think I’ve landed yet,” I murmured, burrowing deeper against his chest, gazing up at him.
Other subs had talked about subspace, but I’d always thought it was a bunch of BS.Having finally experienced it, I understood now when they said it was mind-blowing.
He stared into my eyes, looking pleased.I wasn’t sure if it was with me or himself.The longer he gazed at me, the more uncomfortable I became.Was there a proper ‘after subspace’ etiquette I didn’t know about?What was I supposed to say?“Thank you, Sir; may I have another?” “Was it good for you?” The few un-mangled thoughts I could string together seemed superficial and utterly ridiculous to say aloud.Unsure what to do or say, I tried to pull away, but Tony held tight.Truth be told, cocooned in his strong arms, his masculine scent filling my senses, and surrounded in the decadent heat of his hard body felt…perfect.
My lids slid shut.Keeping them open took more effort than I could manage.It was easy to imagine languishing in this splendor for days, weeks, hell, even months.But the longer I lay with him, the more defined reality became.The fog in my brain began to lift.Soon, Tony would have to leave and make his appearance in the dungeon.His throng of pain sluts waited for the taste of agony Tony commanded from the end of his whip.
I couldn’t afford naïve fantasies about him floating through my head.The slice of peace he’d given me wouldn’t last.And even though his arms felt heavenly, offering him an easy out was for the best.Forcing my eyes open, I inhaled a deep breath.
“You don’t have to stay.I’m better now.Besides, I’m sure you have asses to beat and nipples to torture.”
I felt his body shake with silent laughter.Though, I had no reason to hope, I prayed he would stay a little longer.I’d yearned for the type of comfort he was providing for four long days.I didn’t want to give it up.As soon as the thought crossed my mind, guilt began slithering in.Was it so wrong for me to take what I needed from another man?Wrong for me to let a sadist launch me into subspace?That fact alone blew my mind.Me, bunny flogger-bondage girl accepted every whack of Tony’s righteous spanking and jettisoned off to oblivion.The sense of serenity he’d provided on my maiden voyage had been so surreal and calming.So much so, I wanted to go there again.My cravings were bewildering.What was wrong with me?
Confused and muddled seemed to be a natural state for me over the past four days.Being with Tony exacerbated my discombobulated feelings.The logical parts of me wanted to shoo him out of my room, but the selfish, empty parts of me ached for him to stay.
“I can hang out with you a little longer.Close your eyes, and get some rest.I’ll keep you safe.”
“Safe from what?”I mumbled against his steely chest as my eyelids drifted shut.
“Safe from sub-drop, sweetheart,” he whispered.
“Mmm,” I purred.I’d seen subs break down after intense sessions.George had explained that sub-drop played havoc with emotions.I’d never experienced it, but I didn’t want to chance fate.Why had Tony given me such a spectacular gift, one that brought me such peace?I decideddon’t ask-don’t tellmight be safer.Sometimes, ignorancewasbliss.
“Go on.Ride those endorphins a little longer, angel.It will do you some good.”
As if Tony had been a hypnotist and snapped his fingers, sleep pulled me under.It was a hard, heavy slumber, free of my usual nightmares.
