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I couldn’t understand this man. I couldn’t meld together the ruthless criminal who’d ignored me for years with this person in front of me. The one who wanted to give me all my desires. Who would raise another man’s child if that’s what I wanted. Maybe he just wanted children.
“If you wanted kids, how come you never married before?” I asked, trying to fit all the pieces of the puzzle together.
“I didn’t want marriage or kids until you.” My heart knocked against my chest as I tried to put it back into a steady rhythm.
“Never? Not once?” Why did I sound jealous? I wasn’t jealous. I didn’t care if there’d been someone before me. Of course, there were women before me. I’d seen him with plenty of them over the years. Always blonde and thin. So different from me. “There wasn’t one girl that you thought about settling down with?”
He stared deep into my eyes as if he was considering his answer. As if it was inside my mind instead of his own. I watched the evergreen pools flick with emotion as I waited for him. “There was someone once.”
“What happened?” I could hear the hurt in his voice. The pain from long ago.
Whoever this woman was, she’d destroyed him. I could tell. It was in the way his jaw tensed. In the way, he squeezed me tighter as if I, too, would disappear.
“Turns out she had someone else.”
I hated her. I wanted to kill the woman who cheated on him. Who thought she could do better than this man.
Yes, he was a gangster, but it wasn’t all he was. He was so much more. He deserved to be cared for. To be loved as deeply as he loved those around him.
I cupped his cheeks and brought his lips to mine. I gave him a quick but potent kiss. Expressing my rage and adoration to him.
“I’m so sorry. You deserve far better than that. You’re wonderful.” As I pulled back, I saw Vander had a big, cocky grin. “Don’t let that compliment go to your head.”
He ignored my words and my eye roll. “I’m wonderful, huh? Is that because I gave you four orgasms?”
I knew he was trying to use humor to deflect the conversation. I would let him. He obviously didn’t want to talk about this woman, just like I hated talking about Mitchell.
“It wasn’t four.” I smacked his chest and tried to turn away, but of course, he wouldn’t let me. He tightened his arms on me as he trailed one hand down my ass. Cupping between my legs where we were still joined.
“Hmm… guess I was off my game tonight. Should we try again?” He jerked his hips.
I moaned as my walls clenched around him. But then I felt a sting of pain as the soreness set in. He was huge. Like, shouldn’t be able to fit inside me big.
“Oh god, no,” I said. “I already feel like I’ll be waddling like a penguin tomorrow.” He barked out a loud laugh that shook my entire body as I tried to smack and push him away. He continued to laugh as he absorbed my blows like a cat was pawing at him. “Don’t let that go to your ego, either.”
“Too late, Sunflower. I’m going to be thinking about that for days.” He leaned forward to kiss my neck before placing his lips on the shell of my ear, making me shiver. “Probably as long as you’ll be feeling me in that tight cunt of yours.”
“Vander.” I hid my face in his chest. A blush colored my cheeks. I didn’t know how I could feel embarrassed while he was still inside me.
“You’re going to hide from me?” He grasped my hair and pulled until I was staring up at him again. His evergreen eyes glittered with amusement as he stared down at me. “I think we’re past that. You came on my tongue while you rode my face.”
“Oh god.” I covered my face with my hands as both desire and shame turned my cheeks bright red.
“Yeah. I remember you saying that, too, while you flooded my cock.” He laughed as he gave my ass a little slap that only served to make me feel his cock inside me. I stifled a moan as our bodies jerked, pressing my clit into his hard pelvis.
“Please stop.”
In a breath, the air around us changed. It lost its playfulness. I could feel the intensity pumping off him even before I lowered my hands to look at him.
There was no more humor in his evergreen eyes; instead, they’d turned harsh. It was the dangerous head of a criminal organization looking back at me.
I didn’t know why he’d changed. But for the first time, seeing that expression didn’t scare me. Not after tonight. Not after he’d taken care of me. Put my needs above his own.
“Why?” He ground out through his clenched jaw. “Are you embarrassed that it was me? That your gangster husband gets you off?”
“What? No!” I looked back and forth between his eyes, trying to understand. And then it clicked.
Months ago, when we’d had sex in his office. I called him a monster. A criminal. I’d wiped his touch from my skin while he watched.
