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What?
No, that wasn’t possible.
On the other hand, I didn’t really know much about omegas, did I?
Maybe… maybe this was it, this was what had been wrong with me all along. I lifted my gaze to his, flooded with warmth and happiness.
And he grinned at me like he’d never been so pleased to look at someone in his entire life.
2
eleri
“OUR ELERI?” SAID my father. “An omega?”
We were all sitting in my parents’ kitchen, at the small kitchen table where we all ate dinner together every night. Me, my mother, my father, and Prince Devlin, who was holding my hand. He had been touching me incessantly.
Outside, the prince’s entourage—his security team, his driver, and a slew of reporters—were all camped out on our front lawn.
I was twenty-five years old, but I still lived with my parents, basically because I was frightened to live elsewhere. I couldn’t trust myself sometimes, and that was terrifying.
“Actually, that would explain some things,” said my mother, tilting her head to one side.
When I was eighteen, I’d gone away to college and stayed in a college dormitory, and something strange happened.
I would come to internally refer to these strange episodes as my spells. They would come on me from time to time. Usually, I was able to handle them by taking several sleeping pills—just OTC stuff—Benedryl worked—and then I would be knocked out and wake up feeling better.
But this was the first time, and I didn’t know any better. I’d felt out of control, but intoxicatingly so. I’d ended up in a room with a group of boys, begging them for sex, which they’d been happy enough to provide me. Before then, I’d had only furtive, very vanilla sex in stolen moments here and there with my high school boyfriend. But that night, I let at least eleven of them penetrate me, and not just in my… well, in lots of places.
At the time, I liked it.
I didn’t even regret it, that was the thing. The only thing I regretted about it was that I didn’t get enough. That no matter how much sex I had, it was never enough.
I left college and went home after that, anyway.
People thought things about me. Men treated me in awful ways, called me names, expected that they could take whatever they wanted from me. Other women were cruel or they felt sorry for me and wanted to convince me to go and report all the guys for raping me.
When I came home, I didn’t tell my mother everything, but I told her enough. I told her that if I was ever acting weird that she should help me dose myself. She had done so.
“People like us don’t have designations,” said my father, shaking his head at the prince. “And you don’t even know her.”
The prince nodded at my father. “Absolutely, this is highly irregular. I think I must have known…” He turned to look at me and smiled and then back to my father. “I’ve never been regular is the truth. It’s been a source of consternation to the royals, and there’s been some concern that I’d never find an omega, because I’ve never—” He cleared his throat, face reddening. “Well, erm, never mind that, I suppose. All I mean to say, sir, is that your daughter is meant for me, and I can feel it. And she feels it, too, don’t you, Eleri?” He was still smiling at me.
“I do,” I breathed. “I smell you.”
“Yes,” he said with a laugh. “How odd it must have been for you, growing up like this. No one would have known why you… have you been through heats?”
Heat. They were heats.
Why had I never put this together before? I felt like a colossal idiot. Obviously, that was why I would sometimes get an insatiable sexual appetite and obviously that was why nothing I did ever satisfied me. If I was an omega, I needed an alpha.
“I didn’t know what they were,” I whispered.
“Oh, you must have been so frightened,” he said. “And confused.” He pulled my hand to his lips and kissed the back of it, and then my knuckles. “You needed me, and I didn’t know where you were, and I feel horrible knowing that. If only I’d found you sooner.”
More things were clicking into place for me. I’d sensed it before, the way people were drawn to me. People were drawn to omegas, even people who didn’t have designations, after all. I could sense that people wanted me, not for sex necessarily. It was as if they wanted to be near me. You’d think that would be a good feeling, but it had always frightened me. It was if people wanted to, I don’t know, possess me. It was terrifying.
Now, I felt that same feeling from Prince Devlin. He wanted to possess me, too. But for the first time in my life, I wanted to be possessed.
