Page 47 of A Beast Captured My Heart

You do too much explaining especially to females!

Soon as I left here, I made a mental note to take another pill before I had to go into my office to take care of my business. I needed the voices to stop, including Beast. On a day-to-day basis I dealt with him and sometimes a thousand other little voices that I heard in my head saying different things, sometimes all at once or at different times. I learned to deal with them as thoughts, but sometimes it became overwhelming.

“Nigga, you been hit by the love bug. I can see it all on yo face!” Stone smiled as he tried his hardest to sit up in bed. Shaking my head, I took the seat next to him.

“Shit got a nigga shook, my nigga.” Rubbing my hands down my waves, I kept thinking about the possibility of Kayori being pregnant with my baby.

“Everybody deserves love, B. That shit will keep niggas like us well grounded.”

Nodding my head in agreement, I felt that shit too.

“I just got a lot going on. I’m supposed to be taking a trip to the A next week.”

We sat in silence; we both knew what it meant. It was time I put all my enemies to rest.

“You sure you want to do that shit with that nigga Tef?”

“Fuck you mean, Stone?”

“I’m saying though, that’s your blood brother. I’ll kill that nigga without a care… but with you? Nigga, that shit gon’ hit different. You already got plenty other things riding your back, nigga. That shit in particular will haunt your ass… I say, go after that bitch Nia and Quanna first, then go face that nigga Tef.”

“Nigga, he violated though… I can’t let that shit slide, my nigga. You know how this shit goes!” I was starting to get angry, and it was only because I wanted to convince myself that killing Michael is something that needed to be done.

“Think about ya momma, nigga. You need her… you don’t want her hating you. Let the universe handle that nigga. Shit, family always be the first to do you… I told you to let that nigga pass on getting in the game. He wasn’t built for this shit like you and I, he didn’t have the same principles either. That was your fuck up. This shit makes the strongest niggas crumble off greed alone. You get me?”

Nodding my head, I got what he was saying, but I wasn’t trying to hear that shit. All I could think about was how foul he played me and crossed me.

“I’m serious, nigga. Think about your momma.”

Fuck momma! She don’t give a fuck about us any way!

“You still battling with shit mentally ain’t you?” He looked at me seriously, probably seeing that I was in a battle with my thoughts.

“Teflon can’t be trusted, nigga. I might be having a baby on the way! I can’t chance shit!”

“Like I said nigga, think that shit through.” He picked up his cup of water and took slow sips.

“That shit with Gunna fucked me up, my nigga. I can’t even lie… Shit hurt a nigga bad. I can’t even believe he went out like that.”

I could see the hurt in Stone’s eyes as he talked about it. I felt nothing for Gunna. I didn’t even know if I felt anything for Teflon, Nia, and Laquanna. All I saw was betrayal, they were all better off out of my life and erased. Now, when I thought about Gunna how close we were and how we started off it did bother me a bit, it even stung when he offed his self. I felt nothing at the end of it because to me, he deserved his own fate. I never crossed that nigga or gave him a reason to do me dirty.

“You talk to ya moms?”

“Nah, she been on some fuck shit. I had my men move her around to safety, you know? Err time I talk to her ass, she on some pleading for Michael’s pussy ass. That’s the only reason I’ve been moving slow. I’ve been questioning a lot of people love and loyalty for me. Shit got me fucked up more in the head. My trigger finger itching, I ain’t been able to conduct my legal business correctly without snapping off on a mothafucka. Then I got Mattea, I can’t just make Kayori take on everything with her even though, eventually she’s gon’ have to play the momma role to Tea.”

It felt good being able to get all this shit off my chest. If anybody knew me, it was Stone, he never held shit back with how he felt. He wasn’t scared to go toe to toe with my ass either. It’s probably why he was the only real close friend I had more like a brother to me.

“Don’t overdo that shit with shorty, she’s good for you… you need her, and she needs you based off what Lay tells me. Don’t run her away though, nigga.” He gave me a crooked smile as I shook my head.

“Your shorty doesn’t even like me, nigga.” I smiled as he chuckled.

“Nigga, she just don’t play that shit when it comes to her best friend… them two like sisters, they loyal as fuck to one another. I had to deal with Kayori’s threats when I first start fucking with Lay.”

That shit was new to me, having a chick try to step to me. I understood the shit though. I stayed for about two more hours, talking, and laughing with Stone. Like old times, we vibed out. I was able to put shit in a better perspective and plan things out better then how I originally planned. Dapping it up with Stone and promising to come chop it up with him again before the week was out, I made my way back to Kayori’s room to tell her bye.

When I walked in, her bed was made, and she could be heard from the bathroom humming her favorite Sade song. I was happy to hear her in a better mood. When she walked out the bathroom, my dick bricked up and my eyes fell to her thick ass thighs in those ripped up form fitting whitewashed jeans. She had on a pink Nike crop top shirt with the matching shoes. Her hair was in a high ponytail with all those baby hairs adorning her face. Her sweet-smelling perfume filled her room as she rubbed lotion into her hands in forearms.

“Them jeans suffocating my baby.”