Page 46 of A Beast Captured My Heart

“Or what?” She snapped her neck.

Clenching my jaw, I kept telling myself to stay in control. This was Kayori’s best friend and my boy’s wifey. All she was trying to do was protect her friend, so I guess I had to respect her for that. She just had better been glad Beast wasn’t in control because it would’ve gone straight out the window.

“You don’t scare me, nigga. Just like you got a gun, I do too. Now, I’m gonna mind my business, but keep in mind Kay Kay is like a sister to me and I’ll kill behind her. If she ever tells me that you hit her or did some foul shit to her, I’ll be the devil and you could be the nutty nigga you already are. We will see then who wins. You wanna see nutty? I’ll show you that shit in real form if you hurt my fucking sis. She’s been through enough!”

She switched her ass away leaving me standing alone at her front door. I couldn’t do shit but laugh. Stone had his hands full with that woman. I couldn’t even be mad, at least Yori had someone that was real loyal by her side like her best friend. Walking inside the spacious condo, I went straight to Kayori’s room. Without knocking, I softly opened her door and stood there as she laid in the middle of her bed with a pillow tucked between her pretty brown thighs. She stared at her phone, then looked up at me.

Her eyes were red and puffy. I made my way to her as we both remained quiet. Telling her to stand up, I took in her appearance. Her hair was all over her head, she had nothing but a silk nightgown on. Making her straddle me, I massaged her ass and laid my head on her shoulder as I continued to rub all over her back and butt. That calm and peace that I desperately needed came over me. Being in Kayori’s arms felt like home, a place where you felt secure and relaxed. I could show emotions that I hid from everyone else to her and not feel less of a man. That’s just the balance and comfort she gave without even knowing.

“I’m so sorry, Yori. I would never hurt you, baby. I’m sorry for everything, even the things I can’t control.”

She sniffled and I hugged her tighter.

“I’ll make sure that shit will never happen again, I’ll take my meds daily if that means me staying in control.”

Nigga please! Ain’t shit wrong with us! She either get with it, or deal with it!

Ignoring the voice, I continued making promises I hoped that I could keep.

“That’s probably why I did that shit with the apartment; it was wrong. You really are my medicine Yori, having you around me helps me cope more than anything.” I hoped she understood me; I needed her too.

“If it makes you happy, I’ll walk out that door and leave you alone… I know I come with a lot and if I’m too much for you, baby, I’ll let you be.”

It ain’t no fucking walking away! Kayori belongs to me, nigga! Beast was starting to rage inside of me. I swallowed down fear as I looked into her pretty brown eyes awaiting her answer. No matter what she said, I could never let go, too many things came with that.

“I don’t want you to let go, Praise… I just don’t want you to hurt me physically or emotionally.”

Her eyes were tired, and I knew I was now an added stress to her. I really didn’t want that to happen. The best I could try to do was hide more of my problems so it wouldn’t spill into her lap. I didn’t want Kayori stressing over me.

“Yori… I will never in my life hurt you physically. I’ll take my own self out first if that was the case. Now emotionally, you know a nigga ain’t that stable, but I will try to be. I want you to start coming to therapy with me, we can even have separate sessions. I just think you need it for your problems too.”

I picked her chin up, so she can look me in the eyes. She probably felt ugly right now, with how she looked. To me, she looked perfect and flawless. She didn’t understand that when I looked at her, I saw no scars. I saw the woman she really was and the woman she could become with the proper help.

You really on some pussy ass shit right now! We don’t need therapy and I ain’t taking them fucking pills! Only reason I took them bitches was to calm down from killing her and whoever else that was in my path that day! She needs to watch how the fuck she get at me. Throwing a suitcase full of fucking clothes at a nigga like I’m bitch made or some shit!

“That’s why I’m gon’ up the dosage on your ass,” I said aloud, as I shook my head. I really was trying my hardest to stop talking out loud to Beast, which was myself. Shit got confusing to me, but it irked me so bad to start realizing the ignorance and negativity that came with me. I looked into Kayori’s eyes as she gave me a loving look. She was starting to become accustomed when I had my small outburst. She bit her bottom lip and played with her fingernails like she had more shit on her mind.

“I might be pregnant, Praise. Lay is taking me to the doctor today to see if I am.”

Choosing to say nothing, I brought her closer and kissed her passionately. In my mind, this was the beginning of us. Kayori had a piece of me and her combined growing inside of her.

“Do you think it’s too soon?”

Bitches! They always want to start asking all kinds of stupid ass questions and playing fucking games.

Kayori felt more comfortable asking me this, I could tell by how relaxed and at ease she appeared to be. I hoped like hell she wasn’t trying to get an abortion because myself and Beast wasn’t with that shit at all.

“You can’t put a time limit on how things are supposed to go, especially with love.”

Kissing her on the forehead she nodded her head in agreement. Kayori was definitely pregnant. I could tell by how emotional she had become in such a short time. Her emotions were all over the place. We sat intertwined with each other, talked, and made light of the whole situation. I wanted to ask her could she come back to my house, I opted out. I wanted her to ask to come on her own. I wanted to be the one to take her to her doctor’s appointment also. I just didn’t want to suffocate her. She needed time to adjust to me and the major change that was about to take place in both of our lives. I also had business to tend to. Shit that I had been placing on the back burner to track down Laquanna, Nia, and Teflon. I wouldn’t sleep correctly until shit was taken care of.

After running her bath water and getting her nice and settled, I left out of her room and headed straight to Stone’s room. He had his room set up to accommodate him. Stone was shot up nine or ten times. I didn’t know how extensive his healing was because a nigga like Stone didn’t like sympathy or people feeling sorry for him. I had to respect it no less, I just was happy my nigga was still here and fighting hard to get strong before his baby arrived.

I stood back and watched his girl clean his face and put Aloe Vera on his womb, which I assumed was a bullet that went in through his cheek. He talked different because of it, it knocked all his teeth that was on the right side out. It left a small hole on the side of his face. She placed Coco butter all over his face as he rubbed her huge belly. Placing a bandage over the womb she kissed his forehead, looked up at me and rolled her eyes.

Gathering up all her stuff, making sure the area was clean enough, she walked past me, I tapped her on the shoulder to get her attention.

“I’ll never harm Kayori. I got a lot that comes with me, but that’s no excuse to have my girl stressed… trust me, she’s in good hands.”