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a schedule? Does he summon me? I don’t know.

“Um, I don’t know. I guess whenever you’re ready,” he says. Then awkwardness sets in.

Whenever I’m ready. How do you get ready for something like this? I can’t prepare myself to see him

completely naked.

“Alright,” I say. I was hoping he would give me more direction than that, but after a few minutes

of silence, I realize we aren’t getting anywhere right now. Maybe we should start next weekend so we

can get over the weirdness of this conversation. “Well, I guess I should go,” I say, trying to hide my

disappointment. I was secretly hoping to have sex with him tonight because A) it’s been a while for

me, and B) the kiss we shared has been replaying in my mind every damn day since it happened. I’ve

never had a kiss affect me that way. I mean, it made me do crazy things like drive two hours and offer

myself up as his personal sex buddy for a month.

I stand and put my hands by my side like some weird psycho who doesn’t know what to do with

her hands. “I guess we’ll talk or fuck soon then.”

“Talk or fuck?” he asks with a laugh.

“Yep,” I say, popping the P. What is wrong with me? I’m not this awkward person.

I head towards his door and open it, seeing his roommates quickly turn their heads from where

they were clearly trying to hear what we were talking about.

Ezra follows me to the front door and opens it for me. “Bye,” I say quickly and give him a peck on

the cheek before turning and walking down the hallway. I hear his door click shut behind me and

exhale.

I wonder if I’ve just made the stupidest mistake ever. Maybe we could have come back from the

whole kiss thing and been friends again, but now I’ve agreed to sex.

I straighten my spine as I walk out the front door of his building. This was good. We needed to

have this conversation even if it didn’t end in a night of sex like I’d hoped.

I’m just about to get in my car when I hear the faintest sound.

My name.

Someone is calling my name.

I turn and see Ezra coming out of the building. He’s coming right for me.

Chapter 10

Ezra