Page 86 of The Wedding Pact

RaffAlone

Okay, you’re right.

I get that the way I acted towards my brother was wrong now.

I thought I was the winner because of how much money I’ve accrued. But I’m not. Darian has so much more than me. He has a wife who loves him and is totally committed to him and felt secure enough to stand up and say that in front of all her closest friends and family.

I have money, yes, but I don’t have anyone to spend it on. Or rather with.

You’re right, having too much of the stuff can fuck people up. And relationships.

And you’re also right about me not appreciating what I’ve got.

So it’s time for me to slow down and take stock. I’m handing over my CEO role to my colleague and I’m taking a long break from work to get my shit together.

I’d really love to see you again.

I miss you.

Can I take you out on a proper date so I can grovel some more to your face? What do you say?

Finally, a day later, I get the following response, which I read with my heart pounding and my nerves jangling.

IDA

I’m really glad you’ve realised that about your brother, but the thing is, Raffa, I don’t want to constantly feel diminished by you and your ambition. I can’t be with someone who’s happy to walk away from me just to chase a bigger number.

You might have more material wealth than me – I’m a realist so I know I’ll never be a billionaire – but that’s not how I choose to measure success or happiness.

And I won’t allow myself to be overshadowed by it.

I just can’t live that way.

So as much as I like you, I’m not sure a relationship with you is a good idea.

My gut twisting with disappointment, I write back:

RaffAlone

I understand your concerns, but please consider giving me another shot if you feel able to. I’ll do whatever it takes to make things right with you.

IDA

I’ve thought about it some more and I’m not interested in having a partner whose attention I have to compete for. I’ve had enough of feeling small and invisible in my life, thanks, I’m not about to actively agree to it now.

No matter how good the sex is.

RaffAlone

And the conversation.

IDA

Yeah, that too, I guess.

RaffAlone

And the laughs we have when we’re together.