Page 124 of Fame & Chaos

This is all my fault.

Swallowing thickly, I force myself to read the note.

For your beauty is as flawless,

As the beauty of these roses.

Forgive me for being me,

And say you’ll love me for who I want to be.

The man you will adore and call your own.

I have loved you forever…

Say you’ll be my forever?

Caleb xo

My chest constricts painfully, and tears instantly fill my eyes. I knew this would happen. The second I let my guard down, Caleb wanted more. And I can’t give him more.

I just can’t.

The tears spill down my cheeks while I clutch the card tightly in trembling fingers.

I don’t even know why I’m crying anymore.

Is it sadness?

Fear?

Relief?

Because the truth is, I’ve loved Caleb every single day since I walked away from him. Part of me has always wanted to be his. But another part of me knows exactly who Caleb is.

He’s charming, beautiful, and talented—a man who writes soulful words that make women fall in love with him without even trying.

And that’s the problem.

Women.

There will always be women around him.

Always temptation.

Always opportunities for him to hurt me.

And I can’t survive that.

I don’t do relationships.

I don’t trust in love.

And letting him this close again has already started ruining me.

I wipe furiously at my tears, but more keep falling.

Do I love him?